dear anxiety,
I hate you:)
you're the worst thing in my whole life. why can't i talk to unknown people easily,why am i afraid in the dark,why do I always get shocked on loud noises? why do you do that with me? I don't understand. everyone hates you. my mom hates me,because i have you,and my dad too. even my friends hate you and it always feels like they hate me,because of you.
why do you give me the feeling of being a failure and not good enough or not strong enough?
what do you wanna reach with that?
you may want to teach me,but I probably don't want to be teached. it's enough now.
it's because of you why I want to die.
you give me this feeling
sick
tired
lost
why?
why do you do that to me? I always feel different and sometimes,not often,but sometimes when u don't think about you,I'm much better,but you know. you're always there and I think I can't do something about that.
but yk what
you're getting worse in my head.
this christmas I don't want to have you in my head I just want my boyfriend and best friend and ve happy for even a second.
pleaseeeeee
you're screaming so loud in my head,I know I can hear you,but I just don't want to, ok?!?!?! I don't know if you want me to be dead,but if you want this,please tell me. or tell my boy because he needs to know how I feel or no don't tell him,because maybe he's even sad more then.
why did I make him depressed?
I didn't want this.
everything i touch breaks.
everyone I get to know,get's sad and even worse.
maybe I should just... quit?
