they broke me. they made my life to hell. mom? thank you for giving me food and a home where I always can go to,but ut doesn't feel like home anymore. when I was younger you said a lot of things to me,like I'm egoistic or a whore. I guess you didn't noticed,but that hurt. damn much. and I still remember the day you said you're upset,because I didn't do the right thing. it was my fault. always. never thought about you could've done something bad too? no? ok, but now it's like I don't love you I don't hate you I just want to leave you everytime i see you.
dad? oh how much i hate you. it's worse what you did to me than mom. you never told me you loved me and never showed it to me. when I asked you if I'm important to you,you didn't want to answer and that's the answer already. you made me aggressive like no one else and I still don't know what you wanted to reach with it. it always felt like you were watching me,but not in the good way,I mean stalking like a perverse person. I think you didn't but it felt like that,because you were always where I was. Idc anymore for real. yeah look at me,I'm human didn't know that was so important?! you made me so damn sad,oh god you're the worst person in my life and sometimes I wanted you to die. Now I don't want you to die anymore,because I'm a good person now and good person don't even wish bad persons death. I hate you and I wish I could leave you,that's enough to say.
You guys broke me. And he made me be brave and enough in front of you. What's your problem? Am I not allowed to grow? I want to grow,I want a life with him,I want to marry him, BUT I don't want to go to the altar with my father. Because I hate you,Dad. And my wedding should be something special,so leave me alone please, thanks.
{If you both would die,I wouldn't survive that in myself,idk why}
