The End Of All Things // B.U

The Time I Came Out

I woke up in Kayla's bed with Harley's Kayla's and Jack's arms wrapped around me. It was perfect but I needed the toilet so I slipped out of their grip and went to the bathroom.

I went back into the room and they were all awake and on their phones. "Morning." I said grabbing my phone.

"Morning." They replied. I got back onto the bed and scrolled through social media.

After a few minutes we all went into the living room where Brendon and Mike were listening to music. I sat next to Brendon on the couch and changed the song. Our song all the boys started playing and I tried to change it but Brendon stole the remote. Everyone jumped up and started dancing except Harley who was next to me just as embarrassed. I got my phone out and started recording them.

Time skip (three months)
"Harley?" I asked. We were sat on my bed, in my room back in LA, watching Netflix when I realised something.

"Yeah?" He replied.

"I feel like I need a break. From like tours and the band. But then if I do then I'm gonna feel bad."

"Should we call an emergency band meeting?"

"Um yeah."

We went to the meeting and everyone looked worried. I sat on the stage and started explaining.

"I'm sorry but I feel like I need a break from touring and the band and everything. I'll still come to rehearsals and everything but I might not come on the big FBR tour." I explained. "I just feel like everything's going on at once and I don't really know what to do."

"Ava. If you want to leave for a bit we're fine with it because you need to make sure you're happy and everything else in your life is sorted out." Oli replied.

"But you organised the tour. Are you still gonna come see it?" Miles asked.

"Of course. I wouldn't miss it. But I'm not gonna go to every single show. I kinda wanna spend some time with Sarah too since she moved in with us." I mentioned.

"We understand."

"Thank you for being so understanding." They all came in and we had a group hug. When we pulled apart I laughed. "I think you should probably rehearse now. I'll sit here and watch."

They set up and preformed the whole set with Harley singing and Oli and Ethan being backup vocalists. It was perfect. Maybe even better than when I sang it.

"How was that?" Harley asked.

"H that was perfect." I replied.

"Thanks AJ."

"No problem. I should probably tell Brendon."

"Okay. I'm gonna come with you. Bye guys." We left and went back home.

When we got home I told Brendon I was home and we went upstairs and played guitar for a bit. After a while Harley and I went into the studio where Brendon was playing guitar.

"Hey Brendon?" I asked.

"Yeah princess?" He replied putting his guitar down.

"I've decided I'm gonna take a break from touring and the band for a bit."

"Why? If you don't mind me asking."

"Everything's just happening at once and I just need some time off."

"But you organised it. Are you still gonna watch some?"

"Yeah. I'm gonna stay with Sarah and come to a few shows with her. I also just wanna make sure I'm fine mentally to do everything."

"That's a responsible choice."

"I'm still gonna go to rehearsals and stuff but I'm not gonna do any shows. Harley's gonna sing."

"You should tweet about it. So everyone knows."

"Yeah. I will."

"You're so good."

"Thanks dad." Harley and I left and went back to my room. "Everyone's being so supportive. It's too good to be true."

"It's not. You just have a good family." smiled and nodded then a thought hit me. Should I tell Harley? Before I could even think of an answer Harley cut off my thoughts. "What's on your mind?"

"If I tell you, then you literally can't tell anyone."

"Not even Brendon?"

"Especially not Brendon. Promise?"

"Promise. Now tell me."

"Kayla and I. We kissed." I was so confused at why I told him. I wasn't gonna tell anyone. I didn't want to tell anyone but I just found myself telling him.

"I knew it!" I shushed him and he spoke quieter. "I knew you liked someone from that band I just always thought it was Ja- Wait. Did you like them both? Is that why it was hard to see them together?" I nodded and Harley paused to think. "Question. Are you bi or pan?"

"Pan."

"Okay. Another question. Why won't you tell Brendon? He literally has a charity for it, and a song that promotes it and isn't about a threesome."

"I'm just not ready."

"That's fine. I won't make it you do it unless I feel like you're stalling."

"Okay?"

"I think I'll head home now. I'll see you later." He kissed my forehead, a common gesture from Harley, then left.

I sat down still confused on why I told Harley. It's hard to earn my trust. I don't even trust Brendon yet I told Harley.

I lay back on my bed and listened to music then went downstairs and watched movies for a while. The last movie we decided to watch was Love, Simon. The movie finished, and of course I was crying I always cry at that movie, when I decided to tell him. He was putting another movie on when I paused it and turned to him.

"Dad. I need to tell you something." I said more confident that I was.

"Okay. What do you need to tell me?" He replied sitting up.

"I- I'm pansexual." He smiled and hugged me.

"When did you realise?"

"New Years. Kayla and I may have kissed."

"Wait really?" He crosses his legs and sat on the couch like a child. "Tell me everything."

"Apparently she's liked me for ages and I've always liked her. I was scared she'd think I was weird and not wanna be friends anymore. It was probably the most terrifying thing to ever happen."