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I spend two days at home. I cry into the night and sleep at 5am. I will wake up to my alarm ringing at 7am and I would cry again.
I don't know what to do. I can't go out to face people, no one can understand or do anything about this pain I feel in my heart.
I barely ate anything, I shower, I drink water and I would watch shows to distract myself.
My phone is dead. I haven't used it since I got back from Michigan. Kayden kept calling me, maybe the school too.
I decide to charge my phone. I then lay on the couch and feel the great pain in my chest.
I got back to school the next morning. I look horrible. My blonde hair is in a messy bun, my eyes and face are swollen from crying so much.
"I haven't seen you in days." Cameron says when I sat down next to him. "I was sick." I murmured.
Cameron was right. I didn't listen to him.
"You still look sick." Cameron says, tilting his head to get a better look of my face. I want to cry.
But I can't, not here, not in front of Cameron.
"Training is today, you going?" Cameron then changes the subject. "Yeah, of course I am."
No matter how tough life is, I need to play basketball. It's my life.
"Do you think Kayden would make it into his school team?" Cameron ask. His name made my heart ache.
"I don't know." I murmured, "did you guys fight?" Cameron stares down at me. "Sort of." I shrug.
"Ok class, listen up." Our professor calls out before Cameron could say anything. I am relieved, I do not have to answer of his questions.
After my classes, I went to buy a pregnancy kit far-away from home.
It's negative.
Kayden: I will go to the clinic with you, I am coming over to North Carolina right now.
Kayden: give me a day ok.
Pregnancy kits are not always accurate, plus I haven't missed a period in my life before.
I am 2 months late.
Kayden is responsible for this if we do have a baby. I hope he will be a great father.
Why do I tell my family? Do I quit school? What do I do?
I didn't sleep well that night either. I stay awake worrying about being pregnant. What would people think of me? Will my father disown me?
I wait in the clinic, I already got a number. I am just waiting for my turn to be called in. Since I didn't make an appointment, I have to wait awhile.
It's been an hour. There's no sign of Kayden anywhere. He's not answering my calls either.
3 hours has passed, its my turn to go in. I am anxious, what if I am really pregnant? I am sorry if I am but I don't really want to be.
I did another pregnancy test and it came out negative. The doctor said it's probably just stress or maybe thyroids.
I left the clinic with a sigh of relief. I then went to the cafe that I am working at to get a drink.
I enter the cafe and saw the familiar brownish hair sitting afar.
"Hey Morgan," Cameron greeted me.
I ignored him and storm towards Kayden.
"What are you doing?" I stand by their table. A girl with blonde hair sat opposite of him, she's definitely not Melissa but that's not the point.
"Anne." Kayden stood up, I slap him across the face. "You went out on a date?!" I yell.
People in the cafe started to look at us, "Alex, don't do this here." Cameron grabs my wrist, pulling me back.
"Out." Cameron grabs Kayden with his free hand and drag the both of us out of the cafe.
"Here you are!" JC points to me, all smiles on his face.
I look away from him, there's fresh tears streaming down my face. I can't control this anger anymore.
"I spent 4 hours waiting for you!" I push Kayden in the chest, "Alexis, calm down." JC grabs my wrists and pull it down to the side.
"It's revenge for keying my car!" Kayden spat, my eyes widen, "you cheated on me for 6 months straight!" I took a step closer to him.
"You did?" Cameron raise his brows at me.
JC held onto my wrist tighter. "Do you have a kid or not?" Kayden ask, looking me in the eyes.
"No, I had a miscarriage." I say in a low tone.
Kayden laughs, he shakes his head at me. "I wasted my time coming here."
I feel so weak, I just want to cry.
"Dude..."
"No, Cameron. Let it go." JC frowns at him, Cameron takes a step back away from Kayden.
"Leave." JC glares at Kayden.
"See you." Cameron watch him leave and turns to look at me. He doesn't say anything, maybe he wants to say I told you so.
"Are you okay, Morgan? The miscarriage..." He ask instead.
"It's fake." I murmured.
"Thank you." I say to JC. I wipe away my tears and pretend like everything's okay.
"What are you doing here?" I ask, JC is wearing a cap, his hair all tucked in.
"My father is driving by, just wanted to see if you are free for dinner." JC smiles a little.
"I am sorry." I apologised. "I have a lot of schoolwork to catch up on."
"This is Cameron by the way." I introduced him to JC. "Yeah, I know. He's a big superstar." JC smiles at Cameron.
"Yes, yes I am." Cameron nods in agreement, I can't help but smile. "I will see you guys around ok."
"I will send you back home!" JC quickly says, he nods at Cameron and followed me.
"Do you really have a lot of schoolwork or do you just want to avoid me?" JC ask, our hands bumping against each other as we walked.
"I missed two days of school." I simply answered, "it's nice seeing you here, JC. Maybe we should play sometime soon." I then say.
He lowers his head and then let out a light chuckle, "okay Alexis."
I went back into my loft, closed the door behind me and broke into tears.
