First of all let me say, thank you all for reading Phoenix's journey. I appreciate every read, comment, and like. You guys are some of the nicest people I've encountered here on Wattpad. Truly, you guys are strong, sympathetic, amazing human beings who have done nothing but champion for this book and the story I've chosen to tell. Thank you a million times over!
Secondly, I want to say that I've been in a horribly dark place since June 6th, 2015. I haven't been honest with a lot of people in my life, and I tend to hold in the hurt and ignore it completely. This book, has really helped me vent out the twisted and complicated inner workings of my life.
Before a month ago, I hadn't left my house in three months. I stopped sleeping. I stopped eating properly. I stopped bathing and getting out of bed. I fantasized about my death. It was dark, and I totally shut down.
My sister took me in, fixed me up and didn't treat me like a basket case. I spent time with my nieces (adorable little monsters) I went shopping. I read good books. I started singing in the shower again.
This last month I've lived more than I had in the last 3 and half years. I was finally piecing my life back together.
But I've stepped away from writing. The thing that pushed me to write more in the last few years was my will to live. I wrote because I was hurt and I wanted to people to laugh when I couldn't. To love when all I felt was hate. And to understand the facts of life while I was contemplating what life actually was. I wrote to stop myself from jumping over the cliff and drifting off to wherever wherever the damned souls went.
I've been happy. That's my excuse for not writing. My life is coming back to me. I don't need to pretend behind characters anymore. I am the story.
Does this mean I'll stop writing? No! I've used creative writing to deal with the hardship of life for years. I just need to associate it with happy feelings. It's not a tool to ignore my the real world. I want it to help me be a part of this brave new world.
As for Hero Syndrome, I'm trying to give Phoenix the perfect ending. Not a happily ever after, just a happy new beginning. Because we all need a new beginning sometimes.
I'll keep you guys updated on the ending and hopefully have it finished by Thanksgiving (that's the goal I'm aiming for)
Thank you guys for always being here. I love you all.
-Your Rhea
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HERO SYNDROME
Teen Fiction"They say life is fragile, and we're not all guaranteed tomorrows." My name is Phoenix, and despite my name being a bird that rises from the ashes, I can barely rise from my bed on a good day. I was born to be fearless, but I am in fact, a fearful...
