I Got Her Pregnant (5 SOS Story)

Chapter Seventy Nine

Amber's POV

It's been three weeks since Caitlin's funeral. It's been three weeks since Caitlin was burried six feet under. I'm not okay. Deffinately not okay. But I keep myself busy with Mia and Ethan. So I guess, I'm gonna be okay. Not really. But those two keep me occupied, They make me strong. They make me happy. Ethan's been a great big brother. He always want to be where Mia is. He wants to feed her and help change her and help bathe her.

Michael's been here ever since. I told him he could go back on tour with the guys, but he doesn't want to. He says he's on break. But he does fly back in a few days. I don't know if I can go back to normal me when Michael leaves. Mom's been sick too. Jack's been taking care of her. I'm really thankful Jack's here. Taking care of mum. I'm really fond of Jack too. He visits me sometimes. Checking up on me. How the kids are doing. If I'm being able to cope up. To be honest, its hard coping up. It really is. But I know I'll get through.

I've been talking to Luke. I want to believe he's happy with Zoe. But the twinkle in his eyes are absent. Luke's real smile, seems, fake. Call me insensitive and self centered but, his smile looked fake whenever he was with Zoe compared to when he was with me. That's none of my business though. It's been a few weeks since I found out the truth about Brook's baby daddy issue. She tried talking to me and calling my phone. Inboxing me on facebook and tweeting me and what not. But, I can't trust her. I can't trust anyone.

The flashbacks come often now. I couldn't turn them off for the first few days, but I can shut them off now, I still experience black outs though. But thankfully I don't do anything stupid. I feel safe most of the time when Michael's here. But when he leaves even if its for a short period of time, Josh and Hannah haunts my thoughts. I have flashbacks and nightmares about them. That night they "disappeared." I don't like recalling of events though, they make the voices shout and go crazy. They tell me not to worry about it but I couldn't help it. I was 13 and I didn't even know what I had.

"Amber?" A voice said snapping me out of my train of thoughts from Josh and Hannah.

"Yeah?" I look at Jack who brought mom over to see her grandkids. She doesn't look too well too. But she told me she's okay.

"Are you okay?" Jack asks me. He doesn't know about my past. No one but me, mom, and Luke knows. Michael doesn't even know yet. I don't think I want him to know. Because when he does I know he'll leave.

"Yeah Jack. I'm fine." I reply and smile lightly at him. He smiles back and looks back down at Mia giving her the bottle again. I smile at them.

"Mommy! Jacky wont let me hold her." Ethan whispered in my ear. "He's being mean." He whispered again. I look at him and take him to sit on my lap. I look at him and lean down to his ear.

"Don't worry, she's still your baby sister yeah?" I said and he nods and giggles. I hold him close pulling him closer.

"Honey!! I'm home!!" Michael says as he enters the house. "Oh. Cara, Jack. I didn't know you'd be here." He said casually as he scratched the back of his neck.

"Hello Michael." Mom greeted back and smiled as she stood up going to the kitchen.

Mikey shut the door behind him and sat beside me and snakes his arm around my waist like the way he always did. I leaned into him and rested my head on his shoulder while Ethan went over to Mikey.

"I missed you." He said and I smiled. I always smiled when he's around.

"I missed you too." I could hear him smiling right now.

That's the thing about Mikey and I. We always say sweet things to each other. And if we faught, he'd always say I Love You even when he's mad. And when we had time to cool down, I'd cry into his chest and he'll just hold me. Something Luke and I never did. Luke and I's fight always end up with breaking up. And I'm glad the back and forth is over.

I'm happy with Michael.

Right?

An: who goes "omfg yas she updated" when I updated? no one? ok :"(

anyways, stay tuned to my works, refresh it every few hours, because in a few hours, the first two or three chapters to "Skinny Love a Muke fanfic" will be published. Sooo stay tuned! And chapter 6 &7 will be added to "Run Away Teen". if you havent started reading R.A.T you should start now.. Heads up. 3 New stories coming soon.. "ROLE PLAY A CALUM HOOD TWO PART SERIES"; "THE LOST TAPE AN ASHTON IRWIN STORY" AND "PILLS AND RAZORS A MASHTON/LASHTON BOYXBOY TWO PART SERIES"! OMFGGGGGG YAS!

-lizzy