Loving River

Loving thirty-two

"Say it before you run out of time. Say it before it's too late. Say what you're feeling. Waiting is a mistake."

"I may have been late with realizing my feelings for you, but I would keep loving every inch of you until the end."

River Allen :)

Semmy broke up with me..

That was the only thing my brains were capable to thinking of right now, my happiness crumbled down at an instantly and my heart couldn't take it anymore. It seemed like a big joke.

Why?

Was the first thing that came up in my mind. I couldn't process it.

Did I do something wrong? Was I not a good boyfriend? Should I have paid more attention to my boy?

I loved that damn boy to death..

Semmy had this colorful aura around him that reflected this warm side he had, always inviting me and drawing me in with those big green eyes of his. I tend to get slightly nervous every time he laid his eyes on me and I could feel my heart skip a beat whenever he stared right back at me.

His pale skin glimmered in the sun and his adorable freckles were painted on his cheekbones like an art piece. I loved how his dark brown curls complimented his bright eyes and the strands that slightly fell over his forehead. Every time he showed his smile; he twisted my world upside down and had his way of making me feel so good.

I dearly loved being in his presence, wrapping the small body of the little boy in my arms, close against mine own body. My skin turned into a fierce fire whenever we touched one another and hell, the burn felt so good, I almost became addicted with it.

He was such a small boy who kept positive no matter what and I loved him for that. Especially his humor, his bubbliness and how his entire personality was pretty much perfect. I could never stop loving someone him. He was different than any one else and that drew me in, I felt attracted even though I realized it later.

I realized it anyway.

Everything seemed to be going so well between us the past days; we happily kissed and cuddled, went on many romantic dates, talked till late in the night and even teased one another as if we were still best friends instead of lovers.

So what happened that made him want to pull away from me?

I barely could describe the way I was feeling right now. I felt empty and alone; missing something that connected to me, I felt powerless and being in such a sad mood drove me insane. Simply thinking about this boy made me miss him more and I was determined to find out what was going on, I wanted him back.

No I needed him..

And that's what I was going to do right now, I pulled over with my car at Semmy's house and got in. Lucky for me I had the keys to his house. I ran up to his room and saw my baby boy sitting on his bed with a face expression that broke my heart into pieces.

"Semmy.. You can not just walk away from me like that?!" I said utter confused, sitting in front of him on his bed.

"River?!" He gasped confused, looking up at me with his big green eyes.

I melted at that spot, feeling myself falling further into his eyes.

Oh he was so adorable.. And gorgeous..

"What are you doing here?! Go away! I told you, we are done" He said, crossing his arms as he still looked bewildered.

"Oh you know me Samuel! I'm not going to leave until you tell me what the hell is going on.." I said, looking deep in those green pools of love.

"I told you, it's over between us.." He deadpanned sarcastically.

"I don't believe you!"

"Then don't believe me" He told me heartless, his curls fell in front of his eyes and I surpressed the urge to brush them away.

"No, look me in the eyes and tell me that it's over. And then I leave you alone" I murmured, still in denial.

It couldn't be over, not so fast.

My heart skipped a beat once his eyes looked deeply into mine, it actually made me scared for his reaction. But I refused to believe that it was over.

"I-" I gulped, waiting for his reaction. "Okay.." He murmured. "I c-can't say it.."

A huge weight fell off of my shoulders as I sighed in relieve. This was a good sign and for a second I could see the sunshine between the dark clouds again.

"Then why? Why did you break up with me earlier? I don't get it.. Did I do something wrong? Am I not good enough? Did you find some-"

"Riv.." He interupted me with his gentle voice. "You're rambling.." He smiled cute.

"Sorry.." I tried not to blush, nervously playing with my fingers.

God, what was this boy doing to me?!

"I.. I can't tell you Riv.. Just please, leave me alone. You are better off without me anyway, don't make this harder on me please" He told me, looking lost at his hands. "I'm doing what is best for you River.." He sighed soft.

"What is best for me? You! You are the best for me! I want you" I told him, grabbing his hands in mine. "I know this is not you baby.. Please tell me what's going on? I need to know..'

"Michael.."

"The guy who beat you? What's up with him? Did he touch you?! Are you hurt Semmy? Oh, I'm so gonna kill this bastard!" I growled low, thinking of a murder plan for this cow.

"No no!" Semmy yelled and looked very scared in that moment which made my heart drop. "H-he is g-going to kill me when he finds out you know! He t-treatened me and- and-" His breathings went faster as he went into full panic mode, the tears rolled over his skin.

My heart shattered from the painful sight. I couldn't take it when my soulmate and best friend was hurt by someone or something. He deserved the best yet life kept throwing challenges at him which I wanted to protect him from at all cost.

Someone as sweet and pure as him didn't deserve things like this. He deserved the best and I was able to give him that, I will do that for him.

"Hey hey! Baby, shhhh.." I whispered soft, holding him in my arms. "What did that bastard do to you?"

I listened careful to every words that he said. My hands balled into fists as I could feel myself boil from the anger. My poor baby looked frightened and I was ready to kick this idiot that touched my boy. I would never let anyone touch him mentally or physically ever again.

"Come here.." I said softly, pulling him very close to my chest to make him feel safe as I whispered. "I'm gonna take care of it and I promise you they won't touch or even dare to look at you.. You're safe with me Semmy"