Loving River

Loving ten

"When I'm with you, I feel safe from the things that hurt me inside."

Semmy Carson

Was he about to kiss me? Is that why he leaned in? Did he really looked at my lips?

All those questions had been wandering around my head the whole time that we were swimming, but I couldn't find a solution or explanation for what just happened.

And the stupidest thing of this was that River acted like it didn't happen at all. It made me wonder if it was just a daydream or me being paranoid, but I was aware of what happened.

I could still feel his minty breath on my skin, causing goosebumps over my body and how badly I wanted to brush my lips against his. The closeness between us was inviting, nice and warm, his arms simply fitted around my like some sort of puzzle piece.

I know I should have been happy that my secret didn't get out in the open, because that would ruin everything, but I was still overthinking this situation.

Because what if he really was about to kiss me? What if there was a slight chance that he liked me back?

Currently I was waiting for him to get out of the changing room. We would head back home and probably just hang out together for the rest of the day.

I was excited for that, because no matter what our plans were, I was okay with it as long as it was with River. He made me forget about the bad and the darkness that was somewhere hidden inside of me.

I honestly didn't care for all the things that happened to me. River was enough for me.

"Ready?" River said as he got out after a while.

The water dripped from his messy wet hair which made me gulp. He looked so hot like that especially with those dark eyes..

Why couldn't I have all of him to myself?

"Yes, let's go" I smiled at him and walked towards the exit.

Luckily there wasn't any awkward or silent atmosphere around us yet I didn't understand how he could play it off like that.

He either pulled me too close by accident or he really was about to kiss me.

And I dearly hoped that it was the second option.

We got inside his car and drove towards my house. None of us bothered to start a conversation until we finally arrived.

"Semmy? How are you?" River asked once we walked inside my house.

"Hm? Why are you asking that Riv?" I looked at him in confusion and sat down on the couch.

Swimming was actually so exhausting.

"Just that situation with your parents, I know you don't really like to talk about it and I also know you don't like to be home alone every day" He explained further as he went to sit next to me.

"It's fine.. I'm used to it. Nothing or nobody will ever change this River. It's the way it is and I gotta live with that" I smiled at him, because it was really nice that he asked about me.

"I will take you to my house one of these days okay? Mom missed you a lot and it's been a while" He smiled back and wrapped his arms around me, knowing that would make me feel better.

His mom was more of a mom to my than my own mother.

A shy blush crept on my cheeks when his arms were around me again. It made me feel warm and fuzzy from the inside. I loved it.

"Sounds good" I laughed softly and hugged him back.

River was too good to be true. He was a genuine innocent angel who cared a lot about other people and I wished that I could give him everything that he deserved.

"How are you then? You know.. With that whole Lucy situation?" I asked my beautiful best friend.

"She's been texting me like crazy, but I kept ignoring her. I honestly don't care anymore. It's over now and I realized that I never liked her as much as I thought I did" He admitted and shrugged nonchalant.

Was it bad that it made me feel happy?

It probably was bad, but I do want him to be happy and if that wasn't with me then I would deal with that.

"I'm glad that you are doing okay, that's all what matters to me" I leaned on him.

"The same goes for me, your happiness is really important to me Semmy. Don't ever forget that"

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Hey!

This is a really short chapter, I know and I'm really sorry for that. I hope you can forgive me. The next one will be longer! I was just a bit stuck in this chapter so that's mostly the reason why it's short.

Also, Loving River is #19 in teen fiction!

Have a nice day!

-Sjakiela