Loving River

Loving twelve

"Thank you for staying even if you had every reason to leave. Thank you for making it easier when life gets hard."

Semmy Carson

I woke up to the sound of birds chirping happily outside and the sunlight that caught my eyes through the open windows. A soft moan left my mouth as I finally opened my eyes.

A brown haired boy had his eyes closed, a small smile appeared on his lips and his messy morning hair fell over his forehead. His warm arms were wrapped around my waist which made the blood rush to my cheeks.

He was spooning me.

My heart was beating so fast at the sight of him and the closeness between us, I was afraid that he could hear it.

For some reason I couldn't stop myself from caressing him; my hands found their way to his soft and shaped cheekbones as I watched him.

There he was: River Allen, the boy that I loved since I was only twelve years old.

"Hm.. Sem?" He suddenly murmured soft.

Shit he was awake?!

In a moment of panic I snatched my hand away from his cheek and watched him with widened eyes, hoping that he didn't know that I was staring and touching him like some creepy stalker.

He slowly opened his eyes and our eyes locked then. I swear I couldn't breath for an entire minute. The gray color that was painted with small specks of golden in his eyes, made him even more special. I easily drowned in them. Those eyes simply reminded me of the sun that was being kept in the moon.

I suppose he was my sun and moon in once.

Or that wide smile that spread across his lips and every time that he laughed, he made the stars dance to the sound of his musical laughter. I didn't need a favorite song as long as I could keep listening to his laugh and soothing heartbeat.

And then you had his precious character. He was caring for literally anyone even if he had a reason not to, he was funny with those silly jokes of his and actually smart besides playing rugby; working on a scholarship. It was a blessing to be standing next to him and to think that I was his best friend, made me feel honored.

If I couldn't be his boyfriend then I would be more than happy to be his best friend. That's better than nothing at all and besides, I wasn't enough nor worth it for that matter.

This delicate boy was so incredibly breathtaking and a one in a million person. Any girl would be lucky to have him as her boyfriend.

"Oh I-I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to" He interrupted my thoughts and took his arms from my waist, making me feel nothing but empty and cold.

Did you hear that?

That was the sound of my heart crashing down to the ground.

"I-it's okay.." I muttered, not meeting his eyes.

I had to admit, this was way harder than I let on. This was something I had to deal with on my own, I couldn't fall in love with someone else and I'd be watching him being happy with some random girl. Unrequited love was never easy.

It made me wonder how I could ever make him mine? Could he be mine? Did I miss something? What was wrong with me?

"What's wrong Sem? Is it the pain? Are you still hurting from what they did to you? Oh I am so gonna kill those bastards!" He glared angrily, looking murderous again.

And the funny thing is that I never saw this side of him. What made him so mad?

"I'm okay, it only hurts a little b-bit.." I lied and flinched when I realized that it hurt more than I thought it would.

"We are staying here today. I don't care what you have to say. You are still hurt and you deserve some rest. I will take care of your wounds after you showered" River told me and got out of bed, wrapping the blankets tighter around my body.

"So.. you stay with me?" I asked with a small smile.

I didn't deserve someone as sweet as River. He was the only one who treated me like I was

"Of course I will Sem, I'm not leaving you and especially not after what just happened. I should be looking out for you, it wouldn't have happened if I-"

But I interrupted him before he could finish that sentence.

"Ssssshhhhttt!" I shushed him and placed my finger on the center of his lips.

His eyes were wide and he looked incredibly cute like that, because he actually was quiet after that. I think he might be blushing, but I wasn't sure. I laughed softly at how adorable he looked right now.

"Listen to me Riv.. None of this is your fault. Please don't feel guilty. I was the one who never told you and maybe.. Maybe I just deserved all the beatings River.." I

"No.. Semmy Carson, you did not deserve that! They are a bunch of assholes who are way too blind and can't see what I see. You are such an amazing friend Sem, don't underestimate that" He smiled and softly pulled me in a hug without causing me any more pain.

In fact, he gave me the warmth that I needed and the butterflies that gave me life. Tingles were spreading across my whole body like some crossfire and I loved that.

"I love you, sports jock" I grinned cheeky, but actually appreciated all the things that he said.

"Oh there he is again! The bastard who can't take losing FIFA!" He snorted loud.

"Hey! You were the one who cheated!" I giggled and stuck my tongue out at him.

Both of us were laughing and hugging one another.

"Call me a sports jock again and I will make sure that the tickle monster brings a visit to you" He smirked, knowing that I couldn't resist tickles.

"No I don't want tickles!" I gasped mortified.

A silence took place between us, it was nice and comfortable actually. With River I didn't need to be scared about being boring or anything else. He was an easy boy and liked me for who I was ever since that day that he gave me a new lunchbox since my bullies stole mine back then.

"Wanna play another game of FIFA?" He broke the silence after a short while.

I couldn't help but smile at our past memory when we played FIFA until we went to the party.

"Hell yeah! And don't cheat on me this time" I smirked.

"The last one who's at the tv downstairs is a stinky wet sock!" River yelled, laughed loud and started running out of the room.

"That is unfair I am in pain you freaking idiot, come here!" I yelled back and ran right after him.