MY GIRL- BUGHEAD

CHAPTER 26

*Time pass, 5 months, end of April*

Jughead's POV

I open my eyes and look around. I sigh at the empty bed and drop a few tears. Betty's not here. I see her in my dreams every night. Gosh I miss her.

Especially in this house. I can see into my childhood room from this window here. She first saw me from here. But I love her. And it's getting better.

I stand up and walk to the many pictures that I have of her or the two of us in here.

I take one picture into my hands and kiss the place, where are her lips, "Morning baby. I miss you," I cry.

I put the picture back and wipe my tears away and take a deep breath. My goal for today, is to get through the day. It's the day, we got to know, that we're having Jullie. Exactly a year ago. Now she's 5 months old.

I go into her room (as we're living in Alice's childhood house now, cause Betty left it to dad, she has her own room). I see her sitting in the crib. I smile at that.

She looks at me and reaches her arms out while giggling, "Dada," she says.

I chuckle with tears. She has never said anything. I go to her and take her out of the crib.

"Hey baby," I say and kiss her forehead.

"Dada," she giggles again.

"Daddy, huh?" I chuckle and kiss her forehead, "Love you," I say.

She rests her head on my chest and I smile at that, "It's saturday so I can actually be home with you all day," I say in a baby voice and kiss her nose. Thst makes her giggle. It's the cutest sound in the world.

I go into my room with her and lie on my back on my bed and put her on my stomigh. She crawls up to me, that's early, I know, but she learned it a few days ago and now it's all she's doing.

She puts her hands on my cheeks while giggling. I chuckle and kiss her forehead, "You're exactly like your mommy," I say.

That makes her babble. I smile and wipe away my tears. She can never see her. Ever. And Betty can never see her growing up. Well, she does, but still.

I sigh and look up at the cealing, where should be the sky, "I miss you, baby," I whisper.

Jullie puts her hand on my cheek again and feels my tears I guess. I smile down at her and kiss her forehead.

"Dada," she says sadly, not getting what is happening.

I look down at her and kiss her hair, "I miss your mommy, baby," I say and put my arms around her and hold her on my chest while crying.

I hear my door open so I look there. JB comes in and sits next to us with a sad face. She doesn't say anything, she just takes my beanie off and kisses my hair.

I cry into Jullie's head, and she's not getting what's happening.

"I can take her, if you want," Jelly says sadly. I look at her and nod.

"Thanks," I say and she takes Jullie off of my chest.

She smiles sadly and I can see that she starts crying too, "Just... I don't know, try to get through this day," she says.

I smile, for a 12, almost 13 year old, she's so smart. I nod and kiss her hair.

"Hey baby," she says to Jullie and kisses her hair while going out of my room.

I get up and take Betty's diary, that I've read through so many times now. I open the page, where she writes, how she first saw me and start reading it.

*Time pass, 1 hour*

"Hey," I say to everyone in the living room with a little smile.

"Hey," they all say and look concerned of me.

"I'm.. Fine," I sigh and take Jullie from the ground and lift her on my lap on the couch.

"Dada," she says happily.

"Hey," I chuckle and kiss her forehead. She puts her little hands on my cheeks again. She loves to do that.

I kiss her nose and then place her to sit on my lap. She giggles and grabs her feet. I chuckle and kiss her hair and then rest my head on the back of the couch and close my eyes.

"You look excausted," Archie says.

"Yeah, couldn't sleep tonight much," I say.

"Me neither," JB sighs.

I open my right eye and turn my head to her, "Why?" I ask.

"You were crying too loud," she says totally seriously.

We both chuckle, knowing that I wasn't, "I cried into a pillow for your information," I say and kiss her hair.

Then I put my head back, still smiling a little and close my eyes again.

"Dude. You have a baby. Just get as much sleep at nights as you can, when she's not crying," Archie says. They all laugh at him, but I only feel tears.

"I'll try," I sigh with tears coming out of my closed eyes.

I'm seeing Betty. Every time I close my eyes. So I'm doing that a lot. I feel her in my embrace or her perfect lips against mine. Right now, I'm tickling her and she's laughing her head off and telling me to stop, with the most adorable nickname ever: "Juggie".

I feel Jullie giggle on my lap, so I wipe my tears away quickly and look at her with a smile. She's playing with her fingerd and is finding it funny. I kiss her hair, and she looks up at me with her head upside down. I kiss her nose. She giggles and looks back at her hands.

"Did you feet her?" I ask JB. She shakes her head. I sigh and get up, taking Jullie with me.

"Come on baby," I say and kiss her forehead, taking her to the kitchen.

I put her into her chair, "What do you wanna eat?" I ask.

She babbles something with a big smile, "Okay," I chuckle and kiss her forehead. I take out some baby puree, that I made yesterday for her, cause she actually likes it.

I sit down in front of her what makes her giggle. I chuckle and take a spoon full of that puree and bring it to her mouth.

"Come on," I say. She opens her mouth and I start feeding her. Half of this is staying inside, but at least something.

When I'm done feeding her, I clean the mess up and then take her out from the chair and give her her bottle, but with water.

"Come on, let's clean you up," I say and kiss her head, going upstairs into her room.

I change her diaper and clothes and then kiss her nose, placing her on he ground and lying on my stomight next to her.

"What do you wanna play?" I ask.

She babbles something and puts her hands on my cheeks again. I smile sadly and kiss her nose.

"Your mommy was just like you," I say and kiss her hair.

"Only that you have more emotions than anyone, but she was hiding them. Cause she was scared. But I got her to open up to everyone," I smile with tears, while fondling her hair, "And just when her life wasn't hell anymore, she died," I cry.

"God, why did she have to die? You never get to see her. I never get to see her again," I cry and pull her on my stomigh, cause I'm now lying down, my back against the carpet.

She looks sad, though she's just a baby and probably didn't understand anything. She puts her hands on my cheeks again. I kiss her nose.

"When you're older, I'll tell you everything about her. And grandma. That's what she wanted.." I cry and kiss her forehead, "I love you baby," I say.

She smiles as I kiss her hair and start tickling her, so that she would be happy and I would be as happy as possible in the moment.