MY GIRL- BUGHEAD

CHAPTER 25

Jughead's POV

Dear Juggie,

I know, that when you're reading this, you're crying your eyes out. And believe me, I'm writing this right now and doing the same...
I hope that our daughter, whatever you chose to name her now, is okay and healthy. Can you please tell her, that I loved her so so so much, and I'm sorry, that I can't be there to help her through her life.
Juggie. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone or anything. You have no idea, how much I love you. And I'm sorry, that I didn't say to you earlier, that I might die while giving birth. Yes, I knew that I have 2% possibilities for surviving. And as it seems right now, I didn't. I didn't tell you, because I couldn't say goodbye. It would hurt too much.
You need to know, that you can't hurt yourself. In any way. Our daughter, she needs you. Every day. In her life as a baby, a toddler, a kid, a teenager and an adult. I know, that you'll be here for her. Thank you for giving me the most beautiful baby in the whole world. I love you so fucking much, that I don't have words, Jug.
You also need to know, that it was my choice. To give my life for our daughter. I sacrificed myself, so that our daughter could live. And I honestly, couldn't be more happy. She needs you Jug, and I know, that you wanna kill yourself right now. But you can't. We don't know, what happens after life, maybe I'm born again, who knows? But I know for sure, that I will see you. No matter where, I will get to touch you and kiss you and hug you at least one more time.
I LOVE YOU BABY.
Please try to move on. I know, that it's hard, especially when you're used to me by your side or snuggled into your neck or chest. I know, that you love my scent, exactly like I love yours. You can take all my clothes and as long as they have the smell, enjoy it.
But moving on, is an important thing. You may not find love. I would think that, if you'd die. That you are my one and only. The love of my life. And maybe it's true, who knows? But.. I know, that you're gonna be clinging on to my clothes and my stuff. Well, take some of it, not all. You can't cry because of me forever. And... You have a daughter now. WE have a daughter now. She is a piece of me. And since it's a girl, who knows, maybe she looks like me and mom?
If you find someone, who you really like, talk to her. Fall in love. I would be happy for you. Really. I love you too much, to see you miserable or just a little unhappy.
Of course, you don't have to get married if it's not true love. Or you don't even have to date anyone. But then at least, be with the serpents. They're our family. They are all in pain too after I die, I guess. So. They're going through the same thing, only that you are going through it the most.
Don't ever think, that I'd be mad if you'd fall in love again. I think, that you won't to be honest, cause it's you. But if you do, I will be so happy for you. You only need to check, if this girl likes our daughter. And then just enjoy life and be happy!
I will be watching you every day. I will see how our baby is growing. Or how you're doing. And if you ever want to talk to me, look at the sky or at the stars. Or even at my picture. Cause I will look at you and listen to you every minute of your life and wait for reuniting after you die when you're 91 years old.
So, don't be afraid. To move on. You can adopt so many puppies. That would make our baby happy too. At least I hope, that she doesn't have allergy :) But you have to move on.
I know, that you're probably lying in a bed right now. Imagine me, snuggled into your side. Imagine that you're fondling my hair or kissing my nose, what you do every time you think I'm being cute. Imagine waking up next to me. But don't ever think, that I am not there. I am. 100%.
I know, that you'll be an amazing dad. Just amazing. Just goffing around with her and making jokes while feeding her as much as she can possibly eat. Do all of it.
And please, finish high school!
Dad said, that he can take care of her, while we're in school, remember? So, you need to finish school.
I know, that most people say, that dying is sad and scary and painful. Well, I don't think so. Right now, I think, that I'm the happiest person alive. We have a baby, Juggie. YOU have a baby. Don't screw her up please.