Chris's POV
I watched Kenny as she talked with our group. Our friends. She looked so happy--so normal. As if nothing ever happened between us. She was hyper and excitable all over again.
Seeing her this way made me happy myself. I missed her smile, her laugh, and her expressions. The hole in my heart that was there a year ago, was gone. Not completely healed, but gone.
My eyes followed her as she leaned forward to hug Stephen, her face glowing with happiness.
"We miss you too, kitten." Stephen said, laughing. I knew they kept in contact ever since I picked up Kenny from Mainstream. The jealousy I felt was overwhelming. Especially when Kenny laughed happily when Stephen called her 'kitten'.
It was like me, calling her Cookie.
"I won't say it again. You've already hurt me Chris. Do you think this isn't hurting me?"
Those words--her words. They kept repeating in my head, over and over again. Every time I looked at myself in the mirror--or accidentally saw my reflection, my chest would twist inside, and I'd remember the time she slapped me and said those words to me.
You've hurt me.
Again.
Do you think this isn't hurting me?
And again.
I realized that the only way I could let her go...was to stay away from her.
She doesn't need me anymore. She'll be happier without me. I've hurt her so much--cut her so deep that I didn't deserve her.
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Kenny's POV
At home, Chris and I walked past each other without saying a word. He didn't even glance at me or acknowledge my presence.
And it hurts.
As soon as he was out of eyeshot, I ran to my room--or rather, the guest room-- and slammed the door shut. I pulled out my I-pod and plugged it to the speakers.
That's why I like messing with you
Putting you through
A lesson or two, because I'm gonna
Before I go my own way
I just gotta say
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone
Their voices reminded me of the songs I listened to when I tried to commit suicide.
Suicide...I flinched and looked up as tears brimmed in my eyes.
Why can't things go back to how they used to be?
I missed him.
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
YOU ARE READING
I still got your back, you stupid bad-ass
Teen FictionKendall has always had it rough; until she met Chris, who somehow makes it all bearable. Until he meets "his soulmate," Addie; As soon as Addie comes into the picture, things for Kenny start to go south. Is Addie all she seems? Will Kendall ever be...
