Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 8

A/N:
I think this chapter is quite boring, but next chapter will be more intresting :)

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You and Roman leave Letha to her house.

"Bye", she says and smiles.

"Bye", you and Roman say to her. You are still sitting on the backseet.

"Y/N, you can come sit here", Roman says and nods toward the front row.

"This place is good", you say, you are not angry to Roman, you are just shocked what did he say to you, because you have been his friend about five years and Letha's friend too.

"Y/N is everything okay?", Roman asks.

"I guess so", you say.

"Don't fucking lie to me", Roman says sighing.

You stare at him and sigh.

"I'm okay", you say not looking at him on the eyes.

"Y/N, I know you and you are not okay right now", Roman says.

You just keep quiet and watch out from the window. Roman sighs and asks:

"Y/N really, what is wrong?"

You look at him and say:

"That what you said to me"

Roman have sadness in his eyes.

"Y/N I didn't mean it, I was just annoyed to Letha", he says.

"I know you didn't mean it but it still feels bad" , you say sadly.

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Roman gets up and he comes sit next to you.

"Y/N, you have no idea how importnant you are to me", Roman says.

"It always doesn't seem like it's like that", you say.

"What do you mean?", Roman asks confused.

"Like how you leave me alone, when you go fuck with some girls", you say.

"I didn't know it was bothering you", Roman says and takes your hand on his own.

"Well it's not like it's bothering me, but...", you start to say.

"What? Are you jealous or something?", Roman asks laughing.

"Umm...", you say.

"Y/N are you really jealous?", Roman asks and stops laughing, he look at you in your eyes.

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You really haven't think to tell about your feelings to Roman, because it would just ruin everything, or you just don't dare
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"Well, maybe", you say quietly.

Roman is thinking what he should say, but you don't let him say anything, because you say:

"Roman we should go, it's late", you say.

"And I can come sit to front row", you add.

"Umm, yes, okay", Roman says and he wakes up from his thoughts.

You both get up and change your place to forward. You both stay in silence the whole trip back to Roman's home.

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You and Roman arrive to his yard. You quickly get up, really don't want talk to him right know.

"Hey, Y/N...", Roman says grabbing your wrist.

"Roman not now, I will take a shower, we will talk later, okay?", you say and he let your hand go, then you continue walking towards your bedroom.

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You take your beautiful red dress off and put white basic towel on and take your pyjama with you. You walk to bathroom, which is next to your room, you have door where you can go there. You lock the door behind you and you throw your towel on the floor. You put shower on and cleaning, warm water starts coming. You wash your hair with good smelling shampoo and your body with chocolate shower cream.

When you close your eyes under the shower, you see your father's face. You startle and open your eyes, but you don't see no one in the bathroom.

"Huh...I just imagine it", you say to yourself, but you are confused, you haven't imagine him earlier. You sit on the floor and put your face on your hands. You sit there awhile thinking about that possibility, if your father some day gets free. Only thinking about that makes you cry. Suddenly, somebody knocks the door.

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"Y/N, you have been there about a one hour", you hear Roman's consered voice.

"Is everything okay?", he asks. You get up from the floor.

"Yes, I just enjoyed warm water", you say, as normally voice as possible.

You quickly dry yourself and put pyjama on. Then you open the door.

Roman sit on your bed and look at you when you sit next to him.

"Y/N, do you have feelings to me?", Roman asks straight.

"I guess so", you say and start blushing and turn your gaze away from his.

Roman doesen't say anything he just put his hand on your cheek and press his lips on yours. It feels good, his lips are so warm and soft. You never haven't kiss anyone else.

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Quickly Roman takes his head back and gets up.

"Y/N, I'm sorry, but I think we should be just friends", he says, his face is sad and he just stare to emptiness.

Then he claps your head and hurries out from the room.

"What?", you say quietly and sadly after him.

Tears start running down your face, first he kiss you and then he just say you two should just be friends. Now you are really confused. You put your head on the pillow and cry yourself to sleep.

A/N:
Umm...I'm not sure about this, but things get better soon or not so soon.