Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 5

Next day at school you sit behind Roman. You don't really focus, because you are thinking about last night. Last night was weird and that thing what Roman did was strange. You are staring at your desk, but you wake up your thoughts when girl from your class rises up and asks permission go to bathroom. Roman immediately raises his hand and goes after the girl. You know what is going to happen. You try to hold your tears and try to start thinking about
something else.

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"Miss L/N", the teacher says.

"What?", you ask quietly.

"Answer the question", teacher says with a strict voice.

You didn't hear the question and you look around.

"Umm..I didn't hear the question", you say.

Teacher looks at you irritably and says:

"You better focus now ", teacher says severely.

You just nod, and try not to cry, because the teacher reminds you of your dad. You haven't thought him at all, because with Roman you forgot everything what worries you. You get  up when bells are ringing. You pick up your bag and hurry out from the classroom.

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You walk across the aisle thinking. Then you feel someone touching your shoulder. You jump and turn around. It's Letha.

"Hi you scared me", you say smiling fake smile, because now you are sad not happy at all.

"How are you?", Letha asks.

"I'm fine", you say. Letha look at you and says:

"Y/N I know you and you just not look like you are okay", Letha says with concern.

You just shake your head and say:

"Really I'm fine", you say.

You two walk in silence. You stop when you see Peter listening woman moans from the bathroom. You know that there is Roman and that girl from your class. You don't really want to hear. You and Letha just look at Peter like what the fuck is he doing and he says:

"This is exactly what this looks like"

You just keep walking.

"Letha, I need to go bathroom", you say.

"Okay, I have to go home, see you tomorrow", Letha says with smile.

"See you", you say.

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You just sit on the bathroom floor, finally you can cry. You sit on the floor in the small ball. You hold your head on your knees. It's hurting you to see Roman with other girls, but he don't see it, of course he care about you but not in that way what you want, and thinking about your dad. You are so scared that he would come back. You just sit there and feel tired of all that crying and you fall asleep.

Your dream:

You are in dark place. You lay on the cold floor. You stand up and try to get out of there. You just can't find door or window or anything where to go out. Then you hear laughing. You immediately know whose laughter that is and you start crying and screaming when the laughter is coming closer.

"Help!", you scream but anyone can't hear you.

You are trying to get up and run but you can't move anymore. You see your father's frightening shape coming closer and closer.

"Leave me alone!", you scream in panic and fall to he ground.

He is now next to you and raising his hand to hit you.

"Please don't hurt me", you say whispering and then you shut your eyes, hoping that will end soon.

Dream ends

"Y/N, wake up", you hear someone saying to you.

You open up your eyes and see Roman's beatiful eyes. You are shaking and breathing heavily, tears running all over your face. Roman put his hand on your cheek.

"Y/N, what happened?", Roman asks really concern.

"I'm fine, nothing to worry about", you say with shakingly voice not looking at his eyes.

Roman takes your hands and pulls you up.

"Y/N, you don't really look like you're fine", Roman says with a small sad smile.

"I am, I should go home, I don't want bother your family anymore", you say and hurry out from the bahtroom, leaving confused Roman behind you.

Tears are still running down your face, it's hurts too much to be with Roman and see him with other girls.

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You walk fast along the empty aisle, but you can't get far when Roman grabs your wrist and pull you into a hug.

"Y/N, please don't go, you are not bothering anyone", Roman whisper into your ear.

You are still crying on his chest when he hugs you tightly.

"I will help you, I promise", he says and kiss you on the forehead.

He let you go and look you into eyes.

"Y/N I will be with you when you need me, always", he says and smile to you.

He put his arm over to your shoulders and you two start walking to his car.

A/N:
I'm sorry that I haven't updated much, but I have had so much things to do. I will try to update more. But thanks for reading. And I would appreciate comments :), because then I could write better.