Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 30

You step out from the car.

"Bye", Roman says and waves his hand.

"See ya", you say and slam the door shut.

He drives away and you turn to look at your home. It's looking the same, like nothing haven't change, but many things have. You sigh and start walking towards the navy blue coloured house. The grass has growen, because no one haven't been here to take care of it. You come up to the door and dig your keys from your pocket. You find the right key and stuck it in the lock. You push the white door open.

You are not sure what to feel. There's so many bad memories from here, but sometimes life was okay. While you walk to your room, you see how all the furnitures are at the same place, as they were, when you left couple months ago.

You go to your room and see a picure of your family. You are just a little baby and your parents are smiling happily. A single tear runs down to your cheek.

"Why did everything have go to like this?", you think.

You grab the picture from your desk and put it in your bag. Then you start picking other things, which you have forgotten there.

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You have spend about an hour there and Roman still hasn't come. You tried to call him, but he didn't answer. You sit on your chair and stare out from the window. Storm started a while ago and it's raining outside. You just keep wondering, when will Roman come back.

You wake up from your thoughts, when you see a car lights on the road. You notice that it's Roman's car, when it gets closer. You see how Roman gets up from the car, but just stays standing in the rain.

You run to the downstairs and open the front door.

"Roman! Come inside", you say loudly.

"I shouldn't", he says sadly.

"Roman, what are you talking about?", you ask and walk to him.

He stares at the ground.

"I'm ugly", he says and starts crying.

The rain has already soaked your clothes. It breaks your heart to see him like that.

"No, you're not. Can we talk about this inside?", you ask, wiping his cheek.

"I'm an ugly person. I will ruin your life too", he says and his voice cracks.

You cup his face and make him to look at you.

"You're not. I love you", you say.

"No one can love me", he cries and starts sobbing.

"Stop that", you whisper.

You wrap your arms around he and he presses his head on your shoulder. He sobs something and starts shaking. You rub his back and try your best to comfort him.

You haven't never seen Roman like this, so broken. You think that it might be something about Letha.

"Let's go inside. We need to change our clothes", you say and break the hug.

Now is your turn to wrap your hands around his shoulders and lead him inside.

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Roman hasn't talk too much. You gave him some clothes, which were your father's and you change your owns. Now you are sitting on your bed and he leans against your shoulder.

"Do you wanna talk about it?", you put your hand through his wet hair.

Roman just shakes his head. You put a blanket around him and kneel in front of him.

He raises his gaze a little and sniffs.

You grab his face and look at his green eyes.

"I love you", you whisper gently petting his cheek.

"I love you too", Roman whispers.

You stand up and hug him tightly.

"Don't you ever act like that again", you whisper.

Roman snakes his arms around you and presses you hard against his body.

"Can we just sleep?", he asks.

"Of course", you say and let go of him.

You pull Roman up and then throw the covers aside. Then you push him on the bed and lay down next to him. He keeps you tightly next to him, like he can't let go.

You can hear when he falls asleep, he seems so calm. It takes a time you to get some sleep. It feels weird to sleep in here, in the house where your dad killed your mother. You are happy that Roman is here with you, it makes you feel safe. You think what made Roman to act like that, was it something about Letha. You think about it a while, until you drift to sleep.

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