Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 12

Roman is just staring at wall next to you.

"Roman, are you okay?", you ask.

He just nods, not looking at you.

"We will leave now", Roman says, then he let go of your hand and start walking towards his car, leaving you behind.

You stand there for a little while and then you decide to sit down.

"This feels bad, it's clearly something between us, but Roman doesen't want to be with me", you think leaning against the wall.

"I don't know what should I do", you think and your eyes are slowly closing.

Roman's POV:

I walk to my car and I sit there. I'm mad to Peter, I don't understand why he doesn't want to help Y/N and me, to find the Vargulf and everything else what he said to me. I can't see Y/N anywhere, I thought she were coming right behind me.

My phone rings.

"Hey", Letha says.

"Hey, you home?", I ask, at the same time I am glancing around, looking for Y/N.

"No, I'm at the... uh... OBG", Letha says.

"The what?", I ask.

"The gynecologist. No jokes. Baby date", Letha says.

I don't say anything, I'm just thinking about what Peter said to me and where the hell Y/N is.

"You there?", Letha asks.

"Yeah", I say.

"What's wrong?", Letha asks.

"I just, um... ", I start.

"They're playing my song. I gotta go", Letha says, before I can tell her what's wrong.

"Okay", I say, then I drop my phone and get up from the car.

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I walk towards the stairs and I see Y/N sitting there against the wall.

"Y/N, are you ok?", I ask.

I walk closer and I notice that she is sleeping, she must be tired, last night wasn't really comfy to sleep.

I kneel down next to her and put my hand on her cheek.

"Y/N, wake up", I say.

"I love you", she mumbles, her eyes are a little open.

I look at her wide eyed, because I know she has feelings for me and I have feelings for her too. But I'm not ready for serious relationship and I don't want to hurt her, because I care about her, so much.

"Hey, wake up now", I say softly.

Now Y/N opens her eyes wholly and looks at me tiredly.

"What did I just say?", she asks, she was half sleep when she said "I love you", so she doesn't even remember it.

"Nothing", I say to her and pull her up.

"But I'm sure I did say something" Y/N says looking at me questioningly.

I look away from her and she looks at me confused.

"Well...maybe we could go then", Y/N says, when I don't say anything.

Then we walk together to my car.

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3rd person POV:

When you and Roman are at the car, Roman takes sip from his hip flask.

"Roman", Y/N says with a sigh and looks at him.