Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 1

I try to write story, this is my first and English is not my language, so I don't think this is really good but I will try :)

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You are Roman Godfrey’s best friend, one of his couple friends. You both are 17 years old and you live in Hemlock Grove. Roman is almost your only friend, but his cousin Letha and his sister Shelley are your friends too. Your mother is dead and your dad is alcoholic, he is violent sometimes, but no one else knows about it. You like Roman a lot, maybe you even love him.

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You sit in the class next to Roman, who is focused on his pencil. He spins it in his fingers. He raises his gaze and smirks at you. You smile at him a little and then focus back on the lesson.

When the lesson ends you and Roman walk out together, he always takes you home. You walk along the corridor of the school, and Roman notices girl who is in your class, she is leaning against the wall staring at Roman.

Roman notices her and smirks at her. He nods towards the bathroom and the girl smiles at him. She grabs her bag and then walks to the bathroom swinging her ass.

"Things to handle at there. Just wait in my car", Roman says to you.

You fake a smile and say:

"Have fun. Remember protection"

Roman winks his eye to you, before heading to the bathroom. You start walking away burning feeling in your eyes.

"Why do I have to be so fucking ugly and stupid", you think and sigh.

Before you walk out you can hear a moan from the bathroom. It makes you want to run towards the wall.

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You sit in the car thinking, about your opinions. It feels bad when Roman doesn't know what you feel and ucks with other girls, but you can't tell it to him. You just feel like he doesn't like girls like you. Weak and ugly. Tears flow to your cheek.

“Stop crying. He will just ask the reason when he comes here and you have to find an excuse, which he doesn't believe”, you think and wipe the tears off.

You're startled when your phone rings, is Letha, Roman’s cousin who is your another friend.

“Hey", you answer the phone.

“Hey, how's it going?”, Letha asks.

“I’m fine, what about you?”, you say.

“I’m fine too, what about Roman, is he with you?”, Letha ask.

“Umm, he went fuck with some girl”, you say and fake laugh.

“Typical Roman. Y/N, you should tell  about your feelings to him, he doesn't want to hurt you”, Letha says.

“No, I can’t because he doesn’t like me, he thinks I’m just a friend. And I'm not his type of girl I'm ugly”, you say.

“Just try and you aren't ugly. You are beautiful”, Letha says.

You sigh and roll your eyes.

Then you see Roman coming towards the car. He throws his cigarette on the ground and puts his hand through his brown hair.

"I need to stop. Roman is coming. Bye", you say.

“I will call you later. Bye”, Letha says and ends the call.

Roman opens the door and sits next to you.

“Hey”, he says, digging some gum from his jacket pocket.

“Hey, had fun?”, you ask as happily as possible.

“Yeah", he says and smirks looking at you, then he starts the car.

"Who called?", he asks and starts driving.

"Letha. Just asked something about tomorrow", you lie.

"Okay", Roman says and turns the music louder.

You just look out from the window and sigh.

"What is it?", Roman asks and puts his hand through his hair.

You turn to look at him.

"Um, I'm just exhausted", you say and it's kinda true.

"Why?", he asks eating his gum loudly.

"I just am", you say.

"That fucking sucks", Roman says and hits your shoulder lightly.

"I know", you say.

You drive on your yard. You live with your father and he doesn't go to work. He just drinks and hits you. Your house isn't beautiful and it doesn't even feel like home. Your mother died when you was 5 and you just live with her money, she camed from rich family.

You step out from the car.

“Bye, we will see tomorrow, when we go to the amusement park with Letha", you say.

Roman looks at you and smile so beautifully, you can not be smiling.

“Bye”, he says.

You close the door and he drives away.

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You walk inside of your house where is your dad, sleeping on the couch. You just walk quietly, because you don't want wake him up.

You walk to your room and quietly close the door, then you jump on your bed and start quietly crying against the pillow.
 

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