Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 32

You are walking along the road, heavy bag on your shoulder. You want to run, but you can't, because the bag is heavy and you feel sick. The baby is still inside of you and it makes this all even worse. You haven't resorved the time for abortion yet and you must do it as soon as possible. Before it's too late.

You jump a little, when you hear a honk behind you. You turn around and see Letha and his father Norman Godfrey sitting in the car. Norman stops the car next to you and opens the window.

"Need a ride?", Letha asks smiling, but you can see a worried look in her eyes.

"Yes. I'm going to Godfrey's", you say.

"We are going there too. Roman is in coma", Letha says.

"I know. I'm so worried", you say and throw your bag on the back.

You sit in the car and you start driving to Godfrey's.

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You, Letha and Norman walk together to Shelley's room, where Roman is. He is laying on bed and there is beeping monitor next to him. He has a blue-white pyjama on. It's weird that he isn't in hospital, but this is Olivia's decision.

Norman has a hand around Letha and Letha holds your hand. Olivia stands next to Norman.

You are just shocked and scared if Roman will never wake up. It would destroy you. You are holding your tears, because you don't want to cry, when Olivia is there. 

"What happened?", Letha asks quietly.

"A drug overdose", Olivia says, seeming to be in her own world.

"Can we talk downstairs?", Norman asks to Olivia.

Olivia starts walking to the door and Norman follows her sighing.

When they are gone, you can let the tears come.

"What if he doesn't wake up?", you ask your voice cracking, staring at Roman.

"Shh, Y/N. He is going to be okay", Letha says and presses your hand.

"Did you know what we are dating? We never made it offical", you sniff.

"It was obvious", Letha says.

You turn to look at Letha, who smiles sadly. She makes you feel so much better. You know what you need to do next.

"Letha. Can I ask you to do something for me?", you ask, looking at the floor.

"Of course", she says, but a little confusion is in her eyes.

You take a deep breath and say:

"Can you come with me to an abortion?"

Letha's eyes widen and her smile fades away.

"What?", she asks confused.

"Oh, I didn't mean it that way. I'm pregant and it isn't Roman's. And I wanna do an abortion", you say and slowly rise your gaze to look at her.

"Why haven't you tell me? Does Roman know?", Letha asks.

"He knows and I'm sorry, I just find out couple days ago. It would be really important if you where there with me and I need someone to take me home. But I understand if you don't want to, because you are pregant too and it could be uncomfortable to you", you say fastly.

"Y/N, listen. I will come with you, because you are my best friend", Letha days and hugs you.

"Oh my god, thank you", you say and one single tear runs dow to your cheek.

Letha leans back and wipes the tear away.

"But remember to call, text and talk to me more", she says and smiles a bit.

You nod to her and then turn to look Roman. He looks so calm and peaceful. You let go of Letha and sit next to him.

"Letha. We need to go!", Norman yells from downstairs.

"Are you going to school tomorrow?", Letha asks.

"I don't think so. I will just relax and be with him", you say.

Letha walks to Roman and kisses him on his forehead.

"I hope he get well soon", she says.

"Me too", you sigh.

"Bye", Letha says.

You just wave to her, when she walks away.

Now it's just you and Roman. You grab his soft and warm hand and bring it up to your lips. You kiss it softly and then hold it on your own hand tightly.

"Roman. Please come back. I love you more than anything", you whisper.

You wipe his beautiful hair away from his face and kiss his cheek. You keep his hand on your own and then lay next to him. It feels weird to be next to him, when he doesn't move or talk. You keep your head on his chest and put your hand over him.

"Roman. I love you. I don't care if you do stupid things, it won't change. Even if I would want to. You have to wake up. If you don't I will be...I'm not sure what I would be. But there is many people who loves you, so wake up for them", you whisper and get up.

You kiss his cheek one more time and then walk to the door. You look at him one more time and then open the door. You get frighten a little, when Olivia stands behind the door.

"You are not as bad as I thought", she says and walks past you, so you have to lean against the door frame.

"Allright", you say and close the door behind her.

Then you walk downstairs to get something to eat. While you eat you resorve time to an abortion.

It's going to be in the next week. 

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A/N:
Oh god, I'm just thinking how stupid my writing is sometimes or always XD.