Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 9

Next morning, when you wake up you feel pain in your chest, it hurts, that he dumbed you like that. Now you feel worthless. You didn't sleep very well, because when you are sad you see nightmares about your father.

You go to bathroom and look at yourself from the mirror. You don't look really happy, your eyes are red and swellon, because of crying. You sigh sadly and rinse your face with cold water. You don't have energy or no even interest to put makeup. You brush your teeth and your hair, to look more like human. Then you put your favorite shirt and jeans. You don't want to eat anything, it just feels like you don't have to.

You sit on your bed and start staring at the wall, thinking. You don't want to feel anything, because now it hurts to feel, but you still feel. Soon you need to go to school. You don't want to go. You don't want to talk to people.

Someone knocks your door. You get up lazily and go open the door. Shelley stands there smiling small smile to you.

"Hey Y/N. Are you okay, you look a little sad?", Shelley asks.

"Umm, yes, I'm just a little tired", you say smiling fake smile to her, because you are not happy, you can't smile real smile to anyone.

"I just come to tell you that we are leaving soon", Shelley says.

"Oh, okay", you say and get your backpack.

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You walk to the yard with Shelley, not talking much. Roman is already sitting in the car. Roman looks at you sadly when you sit on the backseet with Shelley, not next to him on ront row, like usually. Then you three head for the school.

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On the school Shelley leaves you and Roman, because she's lesson is on other side of the school. You and Roman start walking towards to your classroom. You walk faster than him, because you don't want to talk to him, at least not yet. You just walk into classroom and sit on your place, Roman sits front of you, like usually.

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Next playtime you go out with Roman. "Y/N, is everything okay between us?", Roman asks.

"I'm not sure", you say to him.

"I'm really sorry Y/N, but I think I would just hurt you and I care about you too much to hurt you", Roman says and then he pull you into a hug.

"Okay, I understand, but I hope you don't do those things with other girls when I am offline", you say.

"We are best friends, always remember that Y/N, you are important to me", Roman says and then he break the hug. At least now you can talk to him, but that doesen't change that thing, you want more than friendship with him. You and Roman walk to Peter, who is leaning against the wall.

"Hey", Roman says to Peter and go to lay on the wall next to him.

"Hey", Peter says to Roman and nods to you.

"You do the reading for Pisaro?", Roman asks about book, which was on Peter's hand, which your teacher allowed to read.

"Naw, I watched the movie", Peter says.

"You know I can never keep the Bronte sisters to straight. Which one do fat goth, learn how to girls to masturbate?", Roman talks about the book. You read the book, like week ago.

"Why do I get the feeling that half the reason why you talk to me, is the way people look at you, when you're talking to me?", Peter asks.

Then Roman looks around and many people are staring at him, then Roman smirks and says:
"Oh, it's more than half"

You three start to laugh. You are standing next to them, just listening.

"The thing is, we don't have the same problem", Peter says.

Roman stops laughing and looks at Peter confused.

"Which is?", he Roman asks.

"You're only bored, when you're boring", Peter says and smirks to Roman, then he leaves.

Roman rubs his nose and laughs, he looks at you and you smile to him, then you two go to inside, because another lesson starts.

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In a lesson, teacher is reading a book aloud and students are reading it from their own books. Roman isn't focused, either Peter is. They are looking at each other. Roman writes something on the paper and throw it to Peter.

Teacher notices it and stops reading.
"Are we passing notes, Mr Godfrey?", teacher asks to Roman.

"Wouldn't dream of it, ma'am", Roman  says and tell her to continue.

Teacher glare at Roman and then she continue reading.

You stare at Peter when he opens the wrinkled paper. It says "CAN Y/N AND I WATCH?" You guess it something related to that whole werewolf thing.

After school, you and Roman go to your trays to take your things. Your tray is next to Peter's and you smile to him when he looks at you. Roman is staring st you two and then he comes to you and pulls you with him. Peter had apparently accepted Roman's question. You and Roman head for the home.

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In the evening Roman comes to doorway to ask:
"Y/N do you want to come with me?", he asks.

"Depens where", you say glaring at him.

"Watching when Peter turns into a werewolf", Roman says.

"So it's really true?", you ask incredulously.

"Yeah, you don't have to come, if you don't want to. I won't let him eat you", he says and smirks.

"Okay, I will come", you say nervously and get up from your bed, where you were laying.

You are so afraid, about what is going to happen and what is going to happen is weird and scary, you guess.

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A/N:

I tried to make my chapters easier to read, so I put speaking parts apart, tell me if that isn't good, I will change it back the same way, like before, then.