Why does it have to be so hard? Roman Godfrey X Reader

Chapter 29

You sit on the Roman's bed. Roman is making a drink to himself in the kitchen.

You are thinking about the future, you aren't sure what is going to happen. You have been thinking that you don't want keep the baby, because you aren't ready to be a mother. You are also thinking about your own mother, you can't remember much about her. You have been thinking that you should tell about her death to Roman, but there hasn't been a right time for that.

Roman walks in the room, glass in his hand. He has his white top and black jeans on.

"Hey, Roman"  you say to him.

"Huh?", he mumble, stopping front of you.

"I have to tell you something", you say staring at the ground.

"Can you tell it later? I need to use the bathroom", he says.

"Sure", you say shrugging, but feeling a little sad.

"I'll be right back", he says and wipes your cheek gently.

Roman walks to the bathroom and you hear when the door shuts. You sigh and feel bored. You look at the clock, it's just 16:15. You don't have any homework and there isn't much things to do in Godfrey's home.

After a while you look at the clock. It's 16:22 and Roman is still in the bathroom. You get a little worried and walk to the bathroom door. It's open just a little, just a small piece of light comes out of the bathroom. You pull the door open.

Roman is staring at himself from the mirror. There is a mirror on the table and top of is some cocaine. You know that Roman takes is sometimes, but you don't like it.

"Roman? Is everything okay?", you ask walking closer to him.

"Godfrey Steel", he says, not even looking at you.

"What?", you ask.

Roman takes a sip from his drink and takes a razor blade on his hand.

Now you start feeling more worried.

"Roman. Put it away", you say, staying still.

Roman puts the blade on his temple and presses it. It makes a cut on his face and a trickle of blood spills down on his cheek.

You just stare at him from the mirror, you are too upset to do something.

Roman wipes the blood to his finger and spreads it to his lips.

"What the hell are you doing? Stop that", you say taking the blade off from his hand and throwing it away.

Roman slowly turns to you. His eyes are staring straight into your soul. He seems like he is in his own world.

"Shut up and kiss me", he says and roughly presses his lips against yours.

You can just taste the blood in your mouth, but it doesn't taste that bad as you would think. It tastes good in somehow and you want it more. You start kiss Roman harder and you press yourself as close as him as you can. You just don't want to let go.

But then the doorbell rings. Both of you kind of wake up and let go of each other. You look at yourself from the mirror, the skin around your mouth is covered in blood. You don't know what just happened.

"What just happened?", you mumble looking at Roman.

Roman just shrugs.

"I dunno, but we should clean our faces", he says.

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You and Roman walk downstairs, to the living room. There's a woman.

"You're Roman Godfrey? And you are?", the woman asks.