My Hero Academia Imagines

I Hate That I Love You (Shigaraki Tomura)

Tomura Shigaraki

Writing Prompt 7- I hate how much I love you

You should have known how bad it would be the moment you saw him. You should have known how little he cared about the wellbeing of others. You should have known that he was toxic and bad and manipulative and- and everything a relationship should have not been!

But you were still here, sitting next to him in the bar, watching as he continually scratched at him neck and mumbled nonsense about this and that. The tv was nothing but static and Kurogiri was slowly cleaning glasses.

The regular air of the League of Villains was normal, but that did not make it healthy or comfortable to be in. Tomura ceased his neck harassment and moved to the array of images in front of him.

He one by one began to lift up the pictures of the students from that certain hero class and activated his quirk, the images during to dust and crumbling away under his touch.

"Damn them, they must be thinking they're so wonderful! So great! So strong! Ha! But they're wrong, so very wrong... they have no idea what we're capable of... what I'm capable of."

He laughed and you sighed quietly and nodded to his irrational and psychotic speech. Toga clapped her hands from the background, Twice joining her as soon as she started. Dabi was leaning against a wall, his eyes rolling at what he believed to be a pathetic display.

Everyone one else in your little group of outcasts listened and nodded in agreement. It was toxic. This place was toxic.

But you couldn't leave.

Shaking your head as Tomura finished destroying the images that his mole had received for him, he continued his rant, his fingers once again flying up to his neck and agitating his flaky skin even further.

You closed your eyes and tried to imagine a better place. A better scenario where Tomura was not like this, where he was happy and not obsessed with this new world order his mentor had flung upon him and as a result you and the rest of the League.

A world where it felt good to be his, a world where he treated you like he gave a shit about if you lived or died. A world where you both were happy and thankful for the other.

You reopened your eyes, reality once again setting back in that this world was and would never be that way. The life you had chosen and the Tomura you were with would never be that either.

He had picked you up from the streets after your quirk had gotten the best of you and resulted in the deaths of 42 people at your high school all those years ago. He had promised you a safe haven, a home, a group of people who would not care about your sins or your past.

But a haven was not what this place turned out to be. No this place further pushed you into the realm of darkness that you didn't want to be in from the start. You had since accepted that you were a villain, one of the worst at that.

It was all for Tomura. It always was for Tomura. Everything you did, everything you were was for this devil in disguise as an angel.

If he wanted to invade UA, you would agree wholeheartedly while that little voice in the back of your mind screamed at you to stop. If he wanted to kidnap a student, you would help formulate the plan, despite not wanting to be involved in a kidnapping. If he told you to sacrifice yourself for him, you were pretty sure you'd do it.

You loved him, but you hated him so much as well. You knew he knew of your affections and were playing them to the best of his abilities. Some stupid criminal who could not control their quirk was not worth his time unless he could us them.

You were not a person to him, you were a tool, a weapon. Everything for his master, even if it meant leading a love sick dog on. Everything for him if it meant he would come out on top at the end.

'I hate you Tomura... I hate what you've made me. I hate how dependent on you I am. I hate how in love with you I am... but I love you. I love how right it feels when you compliment me. I love how good it feels when we hurt people. I love how amazing it feels to not let anyone tell me what to do. I hate you so much, but I love you so much.'