Sisters By Chance Friends by Choice

im a hot mess

I'm sorry I truly am such a hot mess.  I've been so stressed about school lately and haven't been able to update anything.  And when I'm not doing school work, I read because it relaxes me.  However, I should be back over Christmas break.

I don't know if you guys like or don't like me posting real time opinions and updates on this story.  I could write another one simply for that when I feel like I have something important enough to say or I could keep just intercepting the regular story.  Let me know.

Anyway, here's what I came here to talk about: Josh's long ass tweet about how people seek people (him) out to hurt them (him) intentionally.  On the surface, to this I'd say "screw off.  You're just pissed because a woman you loved have something to someone else that you've wanted forever."

However, upon further reading into the comments, someone said, and I quote, "is this about Colleen's non-gender child?"

I wanted to scream.  I wanted to swipe all my homework off the table and give up because if people can't be decent human beings, what's the point of trying?  To that, I'd say "F you.  F you for thinking it's necessary to shove gender stereotypes down kids' throats from the time they are conceived.  F you for responding to something about exactly what you're doing by doing it some more."

What exactly is the point of teaching boys to like blue?  Who the crap cares if she wants to put her son in a unicorn outfit because it was freaking adorable.

Mothers are already self conscious enough about how they are raising their child.  Had Colleen seen that (which I'm sure she didn't) she would have lost it.  She knows she's doing everything right because she's presenting that kid with everything the world has to offer.  But when people step in, she'll get hurt.  And Josh would probably like to imagine otherwise, but it'll hurt worse than when she lost him.

And the whole time, Josh enables this behavior.  He tweets this shit, I'm sure, in hopes that people will respond like this, in turn, making him feel better about himself in some twisted way. 

On top of everything else, it's a really good thing Colleen didn't have Josh's kids.  He was raised in "the Bible Belt" in his exact words and she...was not.  Whether he has changed or not, his parenting would be way different than hers.

It makes me sick to think of Josh at home reading that comment.  Imagining his response twists my heart up in a knot.  Does he laugh?  Does he agree?  He must know that every time he tweets something like that, he is only drawing more attention to Colleen on his fan base.

It really says something about his followers when they respond literally criticizing and attacking someone who isn't even in his life anymore and her brand new infant.  Wtf.
When Colleen tweets something about spreading happiness not hate or when she seems down, people don't ever respond asking about Josh.  All the things people could say about him, they don't.  I have not seen his name in her replies in over a year, let alone anything attacking his most vulnerable position, hers being a mom.

People wouldn't talk about Colleen on Josh's twitter so much if he would have kept his mouth shut from the beginning and learn to stfu now.  He wonders why people bring her up; it's so obvious that it gets to him and he lets that weakness shine and also makes himself look like a terrible human being in the process.

I don't understand why this is still an issue we're having.  Of all the breakups online, this could be the most underrated, simply because the more famous party kept her freaking mouth shut.

Josh obviously tweets his emo thoughts at the most obvious times.  And I guess it's hard to avoid when Colleen's child trended on twitter four times in nine months, but don't tweet that you're upset the day she announces she's in labor!  Isn't he supposed to be happy?  Doesn't he live Pamela?  If he's so happy with his "upgrade" why does he care if people talk about her happiness?

I don't know how Pamela does it.  If he obsesses over it online, what is his real life like?

I've noticed both of them just reposted pictures from their wedding.

I feel like that's either, A, Josh's way of being like, "well, she may have a child, but look at me."

Or his way of saying "at least I'm married..."

Let me know who you guys think.

I'll say it one more time for emphasis "is this about Colleen's non-gender child?"

We're supposed to be moving forward.