Khloé Kardashian's Daughter

Chapter 61

It had been a few days and it hasn't sunk in yet. I spent years resenting him, resenting the fact that he left me, he left his kids. So the fact that I was completely and utterly broken inside came as a surprise. Not because I was surprised that I was sad that he died because what kind of heartless person wouldn't be? It's because I was sad that deep down, even after all this time I still expected more of him. I expected him to come around and stay, for good. Despite everything I've said to him that's what I wanted. I felt bad that I felt this way, but it felt worse because I knew that could never happen now.

I hadn't actually seen or talked to anyone about the whole Justin thing except for Jack. The kids had been staying at Kris' place. It hurts, even more, knowing that my kids are out there carrying on not knowing that their dad just died. Not that they know Justin as their dad because to them Jack is their dad, well not just them to everyone and me. It also wasn't helping that Olivia had just seen him for the first time in years and she was probably so confused and had so many questions. Everything happened so quickly I hadn't had the chance to sit down and talk to her about it yet.

I finally decided to roll out of bed seeing as it was now noon and I'm a good four hours passed my "sleep in" time. After quickly brushing my teeth and redoing my hair. I looked in the mirror to see that sweats and a white t-shirt that I'd been wearing since that morning when I had to rush to bring Olivia to the hospital.

As I approached the staircase I could hear the laughing downstairs, I quickly hurried down to see Jack and the guys. Jack was laughing at something Sammy had done. It was nice to see him showing some kind of emotion that wasn't grief or pitty. As Sammy and Johnson saw me lurking in the hall, Sammy quickly nudged Jack and nodded in my direction. He looked over to me and his smile faded. The once infectious smile that was plastered on his was no longer there.

"Hey" He sighed as he stood up and walked my way

"Hi" I forced a smile. He wrapped his arms around me

"You good" He whispered in my ear and I paused for a moment but nodded. I didn't want to bother him with this anymore. I pulled away "I know you're lying Kenn why can't you just be straight up with me?" he asked somewhat angrily. I looked over his shoulder to see both Sammy and Johnson looking around awkwardly. They were obviously uncomfortable.

I pushed passed Jack and made my way to the kitchen "just leave me alone Jack. I'm emotionally exhausted right now and I don't need you getting mad at me cause I'm not being straight up with you"

Jack's POV

As she pushed passed me I couldn't help but sigh loudly as I quickly looked back at her in the kitchen. I returned to the guys and all they did was stare. "What?" I quickly questioned

"She's just like not there" Johnson looked over to her then back to me "just like absolutely broken"

"She's grieving Johnson I don't know what to tell you or her or the kids I just don't know anymore" I slumped into the couch and held my head in my hands

"I don't know how it's not fucking with you though" Sammy added I looked over to him and furrowed my brows

"I fucking hated him. Why would it fuck with me?" I questioned. Sammy's eyes slightly widened

"Damn" Johnson whispered

"That's not what I meant..." Sammy trailed. I had absolutely no idea what he was talking about at this point

"And what did you mean?" Johnson looked to him. Clearly he was confused too

"I mean" he started "how is it not fucking with you... she's like that" he pointed back to Kennedy who was shuffling around the kitchen still puffy eyes "over a guy that's not you" at this point I was mad that he had even brought anything of the sorts up. I'm just glad Kennedy didn't hear it