Sorry •Muke•

Chapter 30 - Miserable At Best

Luke and I waited for the plane to board so I could say good bye to all of them. I gave each of them a hug but I hugged Gerard the hardest. He had told me earlier that he was the one that called to Luke to come down to the airport. Because of him, I would be happy. I owed him so much, but I just didn't have enough time to give him it.

We bid them goodbye and started to walk back to the car. Luke apparently had borrowed Alex's. I looked over at Luke, he looked really skinny, I could tell he lost a bit of weight in those 2-3 weeks I wasn't with him. I then looked down at the ground as we walked.

Then, just like in school, I felt his hand lightly grab mine. I tried holding back the smile as we took the silent walk to the car.

We finally arrived and he let go of my hand. I jumped in the passenger side while we was driving. I looked at him for a minute. He caught me staring and let out a laugh.

"What?" I asked, no longer being able to hold back the smile.

"You! You're just perfect! I don't understand how!" He laughed. I looked down and just kind of played with one of the holes in my shirt.

"Seriously! You are adorable, and perfect in so many ways! There is no one in this world that could ever replace you! In my 16 years of living I have never seen anything more perfect in my life. No sunset could even own up to you! You are just amazing and my little kitten. There is nobody I would rather spend the rest of my life with then you!" 

Tears then started to fill my eyes. Luke had stopped talking and turned to face me.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

I smiled under my tears, "That's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." 

Luke then reached over and wrapped his arms around me. I hugged him back, a light smell of flowers radiated off of him. His chin resting on my shoulder I closed my eyes and hugged him tightly.

Luke and I eventually stopped hugging and I sat back in my seat. I was really tired so I closed my eyes and got some sleep as Luke drove back to our house.

"Mikey.. Kitten wake up.." I heard Luke whisper.

I whisped back as I just woke, "I have told you a million times, I am not a kitten. I am Punk Rock."'

I sat up and rubbed my eyes. There was a layer of eyeliner that was still yet to come off. Then again I didn't really try.

"But I thought you were my kitten?"

I opened my eyes and looked up at the boy. His bottom lip stuck out and his glowing blue eyes shining in the sun light.

"Fine, I am your kitten, but I only if I am a punk rock kitten." 

"Perfect!"

He then leaned over and kissed my cheek before exitting the car and going into the house. I chuckled and got out of the car as well. It was Alex's car but I was sure he would come and get it tomorrow or something.

I closed the garage door and went inside. Luke was laying down in his bed with his face down into the pillow.

I laughed before going over and laying down next to him. I put an arm around his waist as we laid there. That's when his arm then snuggled around my waist and pulled me closer. 

"I am so sorry Luke." 

I then looked over at him as he did the same. Our eyes met and I didn't see any concern, just happiness. Which was strange, I thought he would be so disappointed with me. 

"You aren't mad at me?" I asked, was he? Was he just not showing it?

"Not at all, I was upset to be honest I am just scared now." Luke said, staring into my eyes.

"Why are you scared babe?" I asked, he looked down at my lips before looking back up at my eyes.

"I'm scared that you're gonna leave again.. That you don't love me any more."

I sighed, this was my fault. No matter what I did, Luke would always have the idea of me leaving him on his mind. This never would have happened if I wasn't being so selfish. I had known that picture was a fake. In the background was a totally different shop then the one Luke went to, unless he wanted to walk for an hour and back just to get some ice cream which you can just get 5 minutes away.

"Luke.. I know I left and I feel so bad. There is nothing I can do to stop you from thinking I won't leave again but just know that those days I were gone were worse then the days I have been beaten, worse then the days that I spend crying because of the bullies. Seriously, I love you so much it caused me physical pain..." 

"Besides," I said, pulling my sleeve back to show his name marked into my skin, "You will always be a part of me, no matter what I do."

He smiled before pulling his sleeve back a bit so I could see my name. He then got up and hit the play button the stereo. I quickly recognized the song. I smiled and jumped out of bed.

"Do you remember this song?" He asked, grabbing my hands lightly.

He spun me around as we started dancing, "Yes."

Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade was playing. It was the song that we first danced to, the song we first listened to together, it was the song we almost kissed to, and it was the song that showed me that Luke Hemmings was different.

"But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright." Luke sang softly.

I put my hands behind his neck as his found my waist. I remembered the feel of them being there, and I missed it so much.

We swayed back and forth as the music went on. In that moment, everything was perfect. Luke and I were back at each other's sides. There was no parents to yell at us, or beat us. There wasn't anyone else around to ruin the moment. It was just Luke and I.

I looked up into Luke's eyes. I smiled before leaning in and pressing his lips to mine. The butterflies were still there, the memories of him and I together were still there, and I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.

We pulled away after the song ended. Luke played it softly in the background as we climbed into bed. I then realized the both of us were still fully dressed in skinny jeans and band shirts.

I pulled my light amount of bracelets off and put them on the nightstand. I then turned back to Luke and then grabbed the band of his bands.

"What are you doing?" He asked, grabbing my arms.

"Taking off your pants, we are going to bed." 

"Oh, right." I smiled before he let me undo them and pull them down. He then reached towards mine and that's when things started getting heated.

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And you can imagine what happens next, I didn't feel like writing that right now.

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THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE A RANT THAT I NEED TO LET OUT THANK YOU

-Zoe