Sorry •Muke•

Chapter 39 - The Drug In Me Is You

Okay, so it's like kinda dirty but also kinda not. Yeah, nothing graphic, just some almost graphic shit.

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The suns rays lightly beamed into the room when I woke. I yawned and stretched my arms out. I felt a warmth on the bedding next to me, as if someone was laying there but I didn't see anyone; Luke left.

I looked over and saw that it was about 6 in the morning and the sun had just come up. Since it was 6 in the morning on a Saturday, I jumped out of bed and pulled the drawer of my dresser open. I pulled out some black sweatpants and a white tank top. 

I looked in the mirror and noticed the marks all over my arms. I sighed and jumped back up on the bed. Carefully I started to count each scar, starting which my left wrist (which had 4 scars on it, marking what looked something like a tic-tac-toe game would look like).

"There are 76." I looked up and saw Luke standing there, he was only wearing his Ninja Turtle boxers and a faded black Green Day shirt. I sighed and looked down.

"But, you know those words are not true." He said looking down as he leaned against the doorframe.

"Yes they are." I mumbled.

"No they really aren't. You aren't worthless or pathetic, you are beautiful and have so much potential. And you aren't a.. f-a-g, just because you like boys don't mean that you are, I like boys too, no one calls me that," He said, spelling out the word Fag. 

"And you know what else, Emos are the most kindest, most beautiful people I have ever met. They know what it's like to have a few bad days, and they know how it is to not be happy as much as others are, they understand. If anything, I kind of look up to them."

As Luke spoke we slowly stepped closer, and eventually he cupped my cheek and leaned down, pressing his lips to mine. There was no lust, there was no guilt, or hesitance of any kind, it was just full of love.

As he pulled away he smiled, "Now, it's Sunday morning, and your parents aren't home, where are they?" 

"At work, and they won't return until nightfall." 

Luke thought for a second before speaking, "So that means we can either fuck each other senseless for the next few hours, or we can cuddle and watch movies and play games."

I nearly choked when he offered me sex, "Uhh.."

"So what movie do you want to watch?" He laughed, I only smiled and looked down at my feet that were folded underneath me.

"We could watch Coraline?" I insisted.

"Coraline? Don't you mean Caroline?" I shook my head, "No, it's Coraline, it's some freaky Tim Burton movie, it's one of my favourites."

"Well, I guess we have to watch it them." He smiled and I jumped off the bed to run over to the shelves under the TV. I pulled out Coraline and inserted it into the player.

"What's it about?" Luke asked, getting underneath the covers, beside me.

"It's about this girl who moves to this place called the Pink Palace with her parents and it's all rainy and she hates everything about it, from the neighbors to how her parents are always working. Then she meets this boy who gives her this doll that looks exactly like her, and then she finds this key and it leads to this small door in this living room and behind the door is this whole other world, where she has an other mother and other father, and other everything! In the other world, everything is exactly how she wants, but then the other mother wants her to sew buttons onto her eyes so she can stay there forever."