Love Who You Love

Chapter 31|| Remembering

Ever since I've had the twins and got rid of my job, I'm left alone in the house with my own thoughts. Until Dally comes back, that is. He actually gets released tomorrow afternoon, and I cannot wait! It gets lonely without him but honestly, it's not that bad. Lately though, I've been getting lost in my thoughts every chance I get. Now I at least get why Pony always has his head in the clouds. You just get so lost in thought sometimes.

     There's plenty of things I remember, things that I didn't expect to remember. Like the day Soda was born, Pony too. I remember times from when I grew up. I remember Mom and Dad. I remember doing stuff as a family when we were all younger. I can remember a lot of things. One of the many things I remember the most is that one day at the doctor's office. The day I found out I could have children the way I did. The day that changed it all for the first time. It was basically the start of it all.

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     Darry sat in the uncomfortable chairs in front of his doctor's desk, waiting nervously and patiently while his doctor flipped through a folder filled with papers. The sound of paper brushing against paper filled the room. The doctor cleared his throat, looking up to meet Darry's eyes. Darry's eyes scanned his doctor before they darted to the floor. He looked down as he attempted to bottle in his panic attack.

"Darry, I believe I found something when we did a routine blood test." Darry's doctor spoke, sitting behind his desk with folded hands. Darry gulped nervously. He fiddled with the bottom hem of his shirt as he sat almost completely still.

"And what's that?" He questioned, looking up at his doctor. Darry didn't know what to expect. Was he sick? Was there something wrong with him? He definitely didn't feel sick. Nor did he feel like something was wrong with him. What was wrong with him?

"Well...." he flipped through the small folder of papers on his desk, his eyes brows naturally furrowed as he read. "The estrogen levels in your blood seem to be abnormally high for a man your size. Your testosterone is quit high which is normal but the estrogen is considered very high from the levels I'm reading." He paused. Darry stared curiously at his doctor. What was that supposed to mean?

"What about it?" Darry said. The doctor sighed and removed his glasses, revealing his brown, aged and wrinkled eyes.

"Darry, I believe you can have children both ways. From the levels of each hormone, the estrogen matches up with a perfectly healthy woman of your age, same with your testosterone. Meaning you most likely have both sex organs." He explained.

     "So...what does this mean?" Darry questioned cautiously. His eyebrows raised in confusion but also in fear. He didn't want to hear what he thought he would. Though the world wasn't as kind as he hoped it would be.

     "You're a hermaphrodite, Darry ." He concluded.

     Darry's eyes widened in shock, disbelief, maybe even horror the moment his doctor spoke. He sat silent in front of his doctor's desk as he stared at his rough and calloused hands. His teal eyes stayed either glued to his hands or the floor. He was too stunned to think. It was all new and it was all so scary, it was like his body had hit pause while the rest of the world sped up.

     "I-is that all?.." He muttered, still numb to the new information he was given. Darry just wanted to go home. He wanted to go home, hide under the covers and wish it all never happened. That it was all a dream, a dream he would forget in a few hours once he woke up back at home.

    "Yes. Have a nice day, Darry." He spoke, studying Darry's state as the boy stood and seemingly rushed out of the office. The doctor sighed and rubbed his temples once the door shut loudly behind Darry.