WHAT IS REAL

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Anakin thoughtfully walked into the workout room. Qui Gon was waiting for him but he knew that work was not on Anakin's mind.

"Talk to me." was all Qui Gon said.

"Master, Palpatine was able to get me over to the dark side because I could not control my fears. I have always known fear. Fear is what kept me alive on Tatooine. Yet Fear of my dreams led me back to my mother and anger filled me so at her torture that I killed a whole Village of Sand People. Fear of loosing Obi Wan made me fight so hard to rescue him all those times he was in trouble. Yet Fear of loosing Padme led me to join the dark side."

"Anakin one thing I always tried to teach Obi Wan was listen to the Living Force. He never could let go of the strict teaching of the Jedi. There is so much more to the force than they would acknowledge. I was constantly at odds with them for thinking outside the box. In your case, you learned by fear from a very early age. It was a way of life for you. It was why the counsel never wanted to train you. You could not be washed of that thinking. They knew it would always be in you and because of it they could not control you."

" I always knew that they were disappointed when I proved too hard to tame. Mace never once trusted me. Even my saber techniques would drive him crazy."

"I see things different though. You are not a freak and you will bring balance to the Force. Yoda was an excellent master in how to channel the Force. Mace was a powerful master in how to wield the Force and Obi wan balanced out these two teachings but not one of them sees the whole picture. They were so bound by their thoughts of how the force worked that they could not see beyond those walls. One thing you have felt is that there is more to the force than the rules placed on you by either the light side or the dark side."