WHAT IS REAL

LXI

"The light side forces us to kill our basic emotions while the dark side forces you to use only the anger, hate, and bitterness of our emotions. I did not live well under either teaching. I am never more alive than when I love and yet something is messed up with my love also. I loved my mother and I lost her. I clung to you after leaving Tatooine because you gave me stability in a scary time and yet I lost you no sooner than I had you.

 I felt like I was wondering in darkness most of my life happening to bump into the right way or the wrong way. There was no light until Padme came back into my life. I swear Qui Gon I could not loose that light again and I have to hold it. But I find that anything I hold slips from me and dies. What do I do?"

"Love is the key to all things Anakin. Without Love we wither. I have learned this not only here but when I was alive. I too loved another and I was ready to leave the Jedi Order for her and she for me but she too was killed before anything be changed. One thing I learned was no matter how much you love you must let go.

 Life is full of letting go. You are born to your parents who you fiercely love but you let go of them. You may marry but the person will leave you or you them through death. You have children but they leave also. Life is nothing but loving and letting go. You my friend must let go."

"I Can't!!!! How can I let go of the one thing that has kept me on course most all my life?"

"Anakin! You have been anywhere but on course try something new to and trust the force. Love is useless without trust."

Anakin had to think on this for a while. So he picked up his light saber and prepared for training. Training did not go well for Anakin though and finally Qui Gon had to stop the training in order for him not be one big bruise. As Anakin was walking out of the training room Qui Gon called after him. "Love and Trust, that is all you need."