Trapped in Ophelia's Body

Seeing you...

Song: Running after you By Matthew Mole

All I remember are the bright lights blinding me. Everything flashed before my eyes before the world around me shattered. Pain radiated through my whole body, as I felt bones cracking, skin splitting from shards of glass and my world spinning rapidly upside down. I couldn't get the seat belt off and I started to panic. I just wanted out of there. People from nearby running everywhere around me trying to help but I stopped breathing. I remember the red and blue lights and someone releasing me. I felt my body being lifted up and then back down. When I came to there were so many bright lights around me, blinding me once again. I didn't mean to thrash about acting liking a wild animal but I was confused and disoriented. I felt the sharp needle go in my arm and within no time I was calming back down and I went back to sleep.

When I woke up from the sedation I was in a room with my parents by my side. Both of them hovered over me when they noticed I was finally awake. Both of them were crying and praying to God that I was alright. They told me the results. I have a head injury and fluid around my brain so they need to watch to make sure the swelling goes down. My left arm is broke and my left leg has a fracture in it, thankfully it did not break all the way. I have multiple cuts and bruises from the collusion that I did not do. It was not my fault apparently a drunk driver didn't stop at the intersection and slammed into my car totaling it out. I am lucky to be alive. They are keeping me on light sedation because of my anxiety and my parents know that me being confined to the bed with half my body in a cast will put me over the edge. I have no choice of the matter it's not like I can get up and move around at this point.

I replay the scene over and over thinking why I didn't see it all coming sooner than I did and then he pops into my mind. Kodiak. Oh no I forgot to text him. How long have I been here? He has got to be going crazy wondering why he can't get a hold of me.

"Phone...I need my phone," I barely get out of my mouth.

"I'm sure it's still in the car. We will have to go by and clean the car out later."

"But my phone...I need to call Kodiak he is going to be worried about me."

"He will be fine sweetheart. We will try to get a hold of him for you."

I don't say anything as tears form in my eyes. They just don't get it. He probably stayed up all night waiting on me to call him. He is probably freaking out by now.

By the way hospitals are so freaking boring. All I can do is lay in this hard bed with two lumpy pillows. The machines alone get on my everlasting nerve and I had to ask if they could just turn the sounds off. Yeah right. The television has stupid channels that no one even cares to watch. My mom went down to the gift shop to get me a book and a word search book to keep me occupied but my head hurts too much to focus on either one at the moment.

"Can I just go home...to my room...to my bed?" I ask my mom.

"Oh honey, I wish it was that simple. Maybe tomorrow alright the doctors are still concerned about the swelling. Look dad left to go home to get you a few things all right."

"Like my phone?"

"I will ask him if he can run by the shop to get it out alright." She text him and of course he doesn't reply back right away. He must be driving because they have all our phones fixed where you can't use your phone if you're driving.

The door opens a little later and I was hoping it was my dad but no it's the nurse coming in to check on me and bringing me food. My mom uncovers the lid to approve the meal and then she puts it on my small table. I look at it and look away.

"You have got to eat to keep up your strength. Don't you want to get better and go home?" my mom asks.

I roll my eyes at her and pick up the fork with my right hand. I'm not really hungry but I eat to please her. Then as I watch this boring show on the super small TV I fall asleep. I feel tired all the time and I know it's from the medicine that they are keeping me on.

I dream of Kodiak. Those honey golden brown eyes stare into mine and he is so freaking cute when he is smiling ear to ear. He is talking to me telling me that everything is alright.

"Ophelia...I just need to see your beautiful eyes," he says to me but I am looking right back at him. I open my eyes wider and start laughing at him. "I just need to hear you say my name...I need you baby...just wake up for me," he says with this urgency in his voice.

But I am looking at you, I'm not asleep why would he tell me to wake up. I try saying his name but the sound doesn't come out of my mouth. My voice is gone.

"I won't leave you until you wake up. I'm here baby; I'm right here." I hear him but now he is gone I don't see him. This is a really messed up dream.

I feel him kiss my lips, only he knows how to kiss me that way. My body starts to feel all warm and fuzzy inside and I'm trying to wake up. My eyes are refusing to open but I will them to open to see him.

"Ophelia...baby...I'm right here...come on baby look at me...see me..." He is leaning close by me and all I can focus on are those eyes of his. I feel like I could get lost in those eyes. He looks at me and with yearning watery eyes and then a smile forms on his face.

I try to smile back at him but my head pounds like someone is beating it. He looks a little worried about me and stands up and when his lips touch mine I melt on the inside. My heart skips a beat. "Baby you are going to be alright." He tells me and I know I am because he is by my side.

He stays the rest of the day with me. My mom doesn't seem to mind too much. Matter of fact she sits down and gets his whole life story. She is actually enjoying talking with him. When his phone goes off he excuses himself out in the hallway.

"That seems to be a really nice boy. I understand why you must like him so much," she says sincerely and actually smiles at me.

"I do like him...a lot."

When he walks back in he doesn't look too happy.

"What's wrong?" I ask him.

"That was my mom; she said she hopes you get better." He smiles at me but then looks down. "She wants me to go home. She's upset because I didn't tell her I was coming all the way here and it's getting late."

"It's ok...maybe you can come back tomorrow?"

"I have school tomorrow and if I miss they will both be on my case about it. It takes a while to drive all the way here and then back. I'm not sure I will be able to make it back tomorrow or the rest of the week." He walks over and takes my hand in his. "I don't want to leave you babe."

I see the sadness in his eyes. I know he doesn't want to leave but if he has to he has to. "I will be alright...my mom is here."

"I want to be here with you."

"I know but you are right you have school. Maybe you can do my class work too...haha."

"You know I will...all you have to do is ask."

My mom interrupts, "You can get her assignments for her that would be helpful. I am going to run down to get coffee real quick alright." She smiles at me and leaves the room. She is only doing that to give us a moment.

"I really don't want to leave you. I wish I could just stay here all night and the next and the next."

"I would love for that too but your mom is right you should be getting home and besides you have school." I try to smile back at him but it's not working.

He leans in to kiss me and I kiss him back. "Will you call me?" he whispers.

"I don't have my phone but I will find away alright."

He starts to leave however when he gets to the door he turns back around to kiss me again.

"You need to be going...get out of here," I giggle.

He waves bye and when he gets to the door he looks back at me. "I love you."

"Love you too." When the door close I let the tears fall. I don't know why I feel so emotional about him leaving. It's not like he will be gone forever; I know we will see each other again but when will that be.