Trapped in Ophelia's Body

Waiting it out

Song: Come with me by Ecosmith

I don't know how many text I got from him because I really just don't feel like talking to him or anyone for that matter. I snuggle up under the covers on my bed and drift off to sleep only to be waked up a few minutes later by a knock on my door.

"Ophelia, Kodiak is here," my mom says as she opens the door. "Oh! I didn't realize you were in bed. Do you want me to tell him to come back or maybe see you at school tomorrow?"

"No...it will be alright," I tell her as I sit up. She waits for me to come down stairs. I don't know what the big deal is if he is in my room. I mean geez what could possible happen in my room with my door being left open anyway. When I get downstairs he is in the den walking around looking at all the pictures on the wall of me over the years.

"Hey." I say softly as I look down st the floor.

He stops and turns around to look at me. "Hey...you didn't answer any of my text. I was worried about you how did the visit go?"

I roll my eyes and feel my cheeks heat up. I just know they are turning different shadesof red. "I would rather not talk about it if that is ok with you." I plop down on the couch.

He sits down beside me and takes my hand. "Sure...whatever you want." We sit there in silence for some time. "So you think your mom will let us go get a bite to eat?"

"I doubt it but you never know." I get up and go into the kitchen. She is standing at the stove. I kind of don't  even want to ask because I feel that she is going to say no anyway. "So would it be alright if Kodiak and I go get a something to eat?" I ask her.

"I was getting ready to fix dinner," she starts to tell me and I roll my eyes at her. I know it's disrespectful but after the day I had she should give me some time alone with him. I think she knows already how upset I am. "Ok...but be home by eight got it."

"Yes ma'am." I smile back at her. Before walking out I turn back around. " Hey mom...thank you."

"You're  very welcome sweetheart , now go on get out of here."

I let him drive only because he has the bike today and I just need to feel the vibration radiate throughout my entire well being. I ride on the back, holding on to him, breathing him in. He pulls over so he can ask me what I want to eat. "Hey what are you in the mood for?"

"I don't know...you pick," I start laughing. Honestly at this point I really don't care because  I just want yo be with him.

We end up going to Subway. I don't add a lot to my sandwich and I watch as he piles all the ingredient on top of his. We get it to go. I hold the bag while he drives to the park and we get off to find a picnic table.

"So it was that bad uh?" he asks when I am almost done eating.

"It was horrific...if you only knew what they make you do."

"Sorry...I wish you didn't have to go through that." He reaches over and grabs my hand.

"You have no idea...and really I would rather not talk about it."

"So you are on birth control now...what kind?"

"Does it even matter?" I say without looking up at him but when I glance up he looks disappointed because I can't open up to him and talk about this with him. It's not that I don't want him to know its just awkward talking about this. "I'm sorry...it's just...just... been a day. I had to pee in a cup, then they wanted me to wear a paper gown...paper I tell you with nothing on underneath and then they wanted to stick this...this...this...thing in me down there and not to mention giving me a shot...I'm sorry it's just too much I feel so freaking violated."

"Wait they stuck something in you?"

Seriously is that all he got out if what I just said. "Yes...apparently that is the way they check you in case you might have some kind of infection, disease or who knows why either way it's totally disgusting I mean in this day and time surely they can do all that another way."

He doesn't say anything.

"And I got a shot because all the options for birth control are just crazy." I think back on the conversation about the one that is like a ring and they have to insert it in...nope not happening. The reason I didn't choose the pill is because I already take pills for other things and I didn't want to add another one. "And somehow it is supposed to last for like three years however that is supposed to work." I raise both eyebrows  in confusion. 

He leans in closer to me again and I have a feeling he is trying to kiss me but I take the last bite of my sandwich instead. I don't even want to think about making out at the moment.

"I'm sorry about the visit."

I exhale and roll my eyes back at him. "Don't be it's not your fault."

"In a way it is...if I wouldn't have to touch you all the time then we would have not been making out and then your parents would never had known and..."

I cut him off by kissing him. "Kodiak...shhh!"

"So you want me to take you home or you want to go do something?" he says grinning from ear to ear.

"What do you have in mind?"

"I can think of a thing or two." He grins wider.

"Not to hurt your feelings but I'm just not in the mood for making out. Do you want to just go for a walk or something?"

"Sure...whatever you want." He gets up and throws the trash away and then reaches out for me to grab his hand. We talk a long walk in the park before he takes me home.

I'm really not in the mood all week but by the time Saturday comes around I just want him. I tried holding out as long as possible.

I am at his house and even though we are not allowed to be alone we find away. We tell his mom we are going for a walk. We end up in the woods, in the so called castle. I don't say anything but I can tell he has been back here since the last time we were here. He has more blankets and even a pillow. He also has candles and I watch as he goes around lighting them up and carefully placing then around the inside to light up the small room.

When he lights the last one he walks over to me and pulls me the rest of the way into the room. His hands are in my hair, his lips are on my lips and we are pulling on each other's clothes. I never realized that I could want something so bad...not this anyway. We make are way over to the makeshift bed. There are blankets on the floor and he lays me down softly. We are so into each other and nothing else really matters.

Afterwards we lay there in each other's arms. God he feels amazing beside me. It starts to rain and we try to hurry up and get back before we get soaked. We run through the woods as if being chased by the thunder and lightning. By the time we make it to his back door we are soaking wet.

He already knows that I am going to freak out so as he is pulling me thought the house to the bathroom. "Stay here...get undress I will be right back."

"Wait...what?"

"I will be right back...." He smiles and shuts the door. I peal out of my wet clothes and dry off with a towel. There is a light knock on the door and then he opens it right up to hand me a shirt. I laugh. I put it on and shake my head he can't be serious.

"Kodiak...I need bottoms...hello."

"Do you now?" He grins. But then hands me a pair of his shorts. I grab them from him and slide them on. When I open the door to come out he grabs my clothes and takes them to the dryer.

Since we can't go to his room we snuggle up on the couch and watch TV. When my clothes are done he hands them to me and I go to the bathroom to change again into my dry clothes.

"I guess I better be going or I will not make it home on time," I tell him.

"I know...so I will see you tomorrow?"

"Of course." I reach up and kiss him. "Thanks for drying my clothes I would hate to explain to my parents why I am wearing your clothes," I laugh.