Trapped in Ophelia's Body

Acceptance Letter

Song: High hopes by Panic at the Disco

It's funny how life turns out. I mean I would never have thought that I would have a boy friend. Growing up it was the last thing on my mind but here I am almost a year into this relationship with Kodiak. I think it shocked my parents more than anything because honestly I still don't want them touching me. I quick hug here and there is alright but other than that I just don't want to be touched by them.

Kodiak on the other hand...as long as he doesn't zone in on one area I tolerate the rest of it. And even then some days I have to tell him to step back. It's not that I don't want him to touch me; it's just this weird feeling that comes over my ever being and there is nothing I can do about it. The good thing is, is that I haven't had a panic attack in a while so I guess that counts for something right.

I have been waiting on my letter from the state university hoping to be accepted. Kodiak got his acceptance letter last week so surely I will be getting mine soon. Or plan is to graduate and move in together closer to the University. Not sure my parents will be too pleased about it but when he asked me to go I said 'why not.'

He has been saving up money and I had started a job to add to the funds. We both got a grant to help pay for our first two years of college so that will help out tremendously. Over the weekend we drove to Nashville to see about apartments; I can't believe how much they want just for one bedroom dear lord I don't know if we can make it work but we are going to try our best. We actually found a nice one about fifteen minutes away and for a little less money. So if we plan our schedules just right we can ride together. I'm looking over different job applications at the moment when I hear my mom yelling.

"Ophelia...you got mail," my mom yells from the living room.

I jump out of bed and run to her. Sure enough it is the letter that I have been waiting for. I hold it but don't have the nerve to look at it.

"Are you going to just hold it....open it up let's see it?" she says with excitement in her voice.

"Mom...what....what if I didn't get in...then what?" I hesitate to open it.

"You never know if you don't open it." She smiles back. She starts grinning  from ear to ear and she is dancing around as if she needs to go to the bathroom  or something but I know it's  really because she is dying to know as well.

"I can't do it." I hand it over to her. I hold my breath.

"You want me to open it for you...really?" She looks back at me like she can't believe I would even ask her to.

"Please...mom...I...I...just do it mom." I jump up and down like I have to go to the bathroom now. Dear lord she is taking her sweet precious time. She opens up and looks at me then back down.

"Well...well...tell me did I get in?" My body is doing this little dance and I feel like I am going to explode if she just doesn't tell me the news. It must be bad. I see it in her expression. They didn't  accept me.

Then suddenly she smiles ear to ear and starts jumping up and down with me. "You got IN!!!"

I scream with excitement. The two of us jump around and dance in a circle. Once I calm down some, I grab my phone and I called Kodiak. "Guess what?"

"What?"

"I got in..." I squeal. "Looks like we will be at University together after all."

"Congrats...so I guess it's official. Now we have to tell our parents the rest of the plan."

"I...I...may need you to help...help me."

"Ophelia, we talked about this already. I'm telling my parents and you are telling yours...you can do this."

I take a deep breath. "What if I can't?"

"You can...I will see you later alright I have to get back to work."

"Ok...love you."

"Love you too babe." I end the call and my mom is smiling back at me.

"So was he excited just as much as you are?" asks my mom.

"Yes." I tell her and go back to my room. OK so I have no idea how I am going to tell them that we are moving in with each other. I know I said I would but how? I just don't know how they will take it. What if they tell me no? I mean I am eighteen and I guess I don't need their permission but still I mean what happens if they say no?

Later that night he comes over to see me. He is sitting in the living room with my dad, when I walk in.

"Hi."

He stands up and hands me one flower...with no scent. I smile. "Thank you. You didn't have to get me anything."

"Congrats on getting accepted; it's very important you know." He leans down to kiss me and I kiss him back. "So how did they take the news?"

"I haven't said anything yet?"

He stops and gives me this look. "Why not? I told mine; they were cool with it."

"Told us what?" both my parents say at the same time.

I don't say anything and I think that worries them even more.

"God don't tell me you are pregnant?" says my mom.

I roll my eyes. "Really mom...kinda hard when you are on BC and using other protection."

"So what is it then, your wanting to get married...you guys are still too young and you need to finish college first." Says my dad.

"Well we are not getting married at the moment, maybe one day but not right now." I look at Kodiak and he squeezes my hand.

"Well...what do you need to tell us?"

I take a deep breath and let it all out. "We are moving in with each other."

"Ophelia!" my mom says my name as if I am in trouble. Then she looks at me and then over to Kodiak. "I don't know if that is the best thing to do...you guys are so young cant this wait till after you graduate?"

"We could...but we don't want to wait. And besides living closer to the University will help with travel expenses and...and...we already found a nice apartment."

"When were you going to tell us this?"

I feel his hand tighten around mine. "Now."

"I assume there is no changing your mind about this. That's why you were super excited to get the acceptance letter."

I nod my head yes.

"Well looks like you two made up your mind already...it's not like we are going to be able to talk you out of it now are we?"

We both shake our heads no at the same time.