Talk To Me | •Slow Down Sequel•

Chapter 46- No Explainations

Ayona

I'd woken up the next morning prepared to explain and perhaps lay down the most sincerest apology I could manage, but when I'd turned up ready to make breakfast; he'd already left.

A feeling unknown to me sat heavily on my heart. Maybe, it'd been the tallest glass of disappointment that I'd been served; or the fact that I knew, I was practically running him off.

Daystar was handsome and rich, he could've replaced me with a snap of his fingers. He could've found him an obedient gorgeous female that rode him from Monday to Sunday, no problems.

At this point, I knew if it hadn't been for Tamika, he would've long ended this and not looked back—not even to wish Happy Birthday's.

I'd lost my appetite, so I'd decided to kill time by putting all the candles, he'd no doubt put a lot of effort to, away.

It hadn't been until, I'd made my way into my bedroom that my mind really attacked me.

A tear slid down and with a sigh, my back against my bedroom wall, I slid down to my behind.

"Shit, what is wrong with me?"

He'd seen me naked plenty of times and yet, it was my insecurity that made me freeze last night. Despite, trying to keep up my bodily appearance up by working on my stomach, I still felt disgusted with myself.

It had barely anything to do with the baby gut, instead it'd been the scars.

I stood up, walking into my bathroom. The lights on, I unbuttoned my blouse, pushing my pant suit down.

Up until recently, I'd been avoiding mirrors when it came to me being naked. I just couldn't look at myself without the tears welling or the disgust in my judgmental gaze.

My fingers brushed against the sensitive scars, as flashbacks of the attack ran throw my mind. I could still sometimes feel their hot breath against my neck, the sharp slice of how the knife went through me like warm butter.

Blinking sharply, I snapped to reality—harsh reality.

If I couldn't stand the sight of me, why would Daystar see me any differently? Hastily, I turned the lights off, turning away from the mirror.

I had to work and if I wanted to be a good mother and hopefully girlfriend, I had to get over it.

A few deep breaths later, I wiped my face clean, plastering an award winning smile on my face before leaving for work.

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"Yea, you really not gone tell me what's up with you two?"

Unfortunately, my plans of checking on Tamika during lunch hadn't been achievable so I'd had to settle for calling in on my way home from work.

The office had been unusually busy and Greg had been going through another one of his midlife crises— only this time, his drama being an uppity step sibling of his.

Apparently, Day had already called Porsha earlier and sang to Mika. So after I'd been able to put her to sleep, Porsha had stayed on the line trying to get some information from me and to let me know that Khalil had been very helpful with Tamika.

"Nothings going on. I told you, I just worked really late today and by the time I'm home, it'll be long passed her bedtime."

Just then a text rang through from Daystar, saying he wouldn't be home tonight.

I'd pursed my lips. "Porsha I gotta go. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"Oh, okay." She nodded before hanging up.

I dialed Day's number, but he didn't pick up. I hadn't thought he was that mad, but apparently he was.

Maybe after a few days, we'd be able to to talk again.

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A/N: Hey!!! I'll probably put up another chapter sometime later in tonight and a bonus tomorrow.

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