"Choose me or lose me coz am not a back-up plan and will never settle as a second choice"
May 05, 2013
JASMINE'S POV
Its been 3days nang huli kong makausap si Dee sabi niya nakina kaileen siya. I dont know what to feel. Sabi kasi nila wala ako karapatan na masaktan. But the thing is he knew about my feelings and siguro naman tama si Marianne. I'm not just anybody am Dee's Jasmine.
I dont mean to demand something from him. But I really miss him. Sinanay niya ako na magkasama kami and Its a Bad Habit that is Hard to break. So I texted him to meet me.
Dati we can talk about anything basta walang Kai na mababanggit. Pero ngayon ako na mismo ang umiiwas na pag usapan siya dahil ayoko.
Nandito ako ngayon sa KFC magkaharap kami na kumakain. It has been a long awkward silence.
Dati walang katahimikan pag kami magkasama. Kaya this is kinda sad. Nagbago lahat mula nung bumalik si kai.
I was about to start the conversation nang may magsalita.
"how are you baby" napatingin ako sa kung saan nanggaling ang boses na yun. Kasi it was not dee.
"Why are you here?" tanong ko. At sa sobrang gulat ko napatayo ako sa kinauupuan ko.
"Why that reaction baby didn't you miss me? Its been a long time since I laid my eyes on you" i felt harass dahil bigla na lang niya ako niyakap na para bang wala akong kasama.
I was so irritated on the sudden affection he gave me. He shouldnt be doing this to me after all.
*fake cough*
"Am sorry pero I think ayaw ng BHE ko ang ginagawa mo ngayon. So pare would you mind taking your hands off my girl?" I can't even explain. How I look like right I was like. 'am I hearing things?' o talagang tinawag niya akong Bhe and said that am His girl.
Dahan-dahan niya akong nilayo at tinignan ako. "jas are you ok?". He ask me while holding my shoulders. I noddes in response.
kaso may biglang humila sa akin ulit.
"Who the hell are you. And the hell do you even who I am, And jas is NOT your girl SHE is MY GIRLFRIEND" sigaw niya kay dee. He almost reach for dee's colar and so that was my cue.
"Excuse me! James as far as I can remember YOU left me. So how dare you call me your girl!" sagot ko habang nakapagitna sa kanilang dalawa
"wait!what? I never left you. You know my reasons remember. Hindi ko ginusto na umalis kinailangan kong gawin yun" He was trying to pull me away kay dee.
"Wait-" sabi ni dee but he wasnt able to continue what he was about to say.
"And what the hell baby. Hindi ako umalis to see you dating someone else!" sabay sama ng tingin niya kay dee
"Look james, you treat me like an option so I left you as a choice! I was never your priority so wag mong isipin na dahil sinabi mo sa akin ang dahilan nang pag alis mo ay maiintindihan ko na" I am about to cry alam ko yun. Good thing Am here with dee.
bahagyang tinulak ni dee si jamea palayo sa akin. At hinawakan siya sa balikat.
"Pare, tingin ko its time to stop now. you're causing a scene. Maybe next time na lang kayo mag usap ni jas. She's in pain if you don't see. And if you don't mind we need to go" hinila na ako ni dee palayo kay james.
At nung pasakay na kami ng motor niya di namin namalayan na sumunod si james.
"Baby I know nagkamali ako ng maraming beses but please am really sorry, Am willing to make it up to you but please don't go hooking up with a stranger just to get even with me" Nainis ako sa term na ginamit niya kay dee. He is not a stranger and am definitely not hooking up with him.
" He is not a just stranger!!! He is.. He is " I can't even continue what am about to say. I was thinking of what should I tell him so he would shut up.
"Am her Boyfriend so if you dont mind we need to go" pareho kaming nagulat sa sinabi ni dee.
humarap siya sa akin at nag bigay ng tipid na ngiti. "Here" sabi niya sabay abot sa helmet.
nagwalk out na lang si james.
See startted his engine. "uhm dee about kanina" I want to confirm what he told james. Alam ko may possibilty na spur of feeling lang ang sinabi niya pero you can't blame me na sana totoo nga ang sinabi niya.
"Don't talk ayoko nasasaktan ang mga taong mahalaga sa akin. So just hold on to me nang di ka masaktan ok" tumango naman ako. 'bakit parang double meaning' I ask myself was he pertaining to me riding his motor o ung tungkol kay james. At tuluyan na nga niyang pinaandar ang motor habang nakayakap ako sa kanya.
I can feel my cheeks. am definitely smiling. Hey may not confirm na kami na. basta isa lang ang alam ko. mahalaga ako sa kanya. And am satisfied with that.
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09/03/14
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