"Some mistakes are just HARD to just FORGET"
May 26, 2013 (sunday)
MITCH'S POV
"Hindi pwede na siya masaya tapos ako eto.. oh.. look at me am not JUST a mess am a wreck HINDI AKO PAPAYAG!" I am here looking their post using my friend's account. Nakablock kasi aq sa FB nila.
I can't believe how stupid Deinz could be na tanggapin pa si Kai after what happen. Well yeah I maybe stupid and dumb as well but the hell. Babae ako so kaya kong tanggapin na nasa nature ng lalake ang magloko. But damned dee is a guy not only that but a known playboy para lokohin lang ni kai.
"Move on mitch, you still have kevin at your side so why bother them kung ok na nga talaga sila" i just looked at my friend na parang di ako makapaniwala sa sinasabi niya 'move on ka jan!'
Ang pagloloko ay natural lang sa lalake pero betrayal of a friend is a different story.
I met Deinz long before kaileen kasi he became a fling with one of my ex bf's friend so we are on the same circle.
As for kaileen I met her because if Kyle, he is a good friend of mine. Sinasama niya si kaileen sa barkada when we go out. Pero may pagka introvert siya noon.
I know for a fact that I considered kaileen as one of my close and trusted friend lalo na nung college naging mag boardmate kami. She knew all about my failed relationships.
Kaya hindi ko matanggap ang dahilan na 'natukso lang kami at nagkamali' that is not acceptable. She should know better.
" Isipin mo na lang, What if.. just what if it was a sudden turn of table. Kami.. kami ni dee ang gumawa noon sa kanila. Tingin mo ano kaya mararamdaman nila..." a sudden smile was formed at the side of my face.
She definitely gonna get what she fucking deserve...
SOMEONE'S POV
I just cant. Not now.
I have a lot on my plate and I want to think for them first other than myself I've been selfish for too long.
Not only that I WANT TO but now I NEED TO.
Living for myself was easy but now I need to think about my priorities.
I need to choose I need to stop ASAP.
Junr 7 2013 (friday)
MARIANNE'S POV
Dark clouds. Yun ang nakikita ko ngayon sa best friend ko. 'Wrong move' napailing na lang ako.
Hindi ko dapat siya kinunsinti it's all my fault.
"Hey jas, tahan ka na nga jan nagpapaka panget ka at anu ba naman yan oara kang bagong break up" 'hindi naman kaya naging kayo' gusto ko sana idagdag pero alam ko sasama lang ang loob niya lalo sa akin. Kaya I choose not to say it.
"Stop it just stop it jas. Please tita is worried you've been out of work for almost two weeks now. LOOK your mom cant do the work alone she needs your help" pagpapaalala ko sa kanya.
She has been killing herself by not eating and going out of her room.
The last time that I saw her like this was when james suddenly disappear without a trace.
She doesn't deserve to be treated like this. Bakit nga ba ganito ang pag nagmamahal it always reciprocate with PAIN.
Di ka pwede magmahal nang hindi ka handang masaktan. Its the golden rule.
"Baby what happen to you" napatingin ako sa biglang dumating. 'What the' nagulat na lang ako na nakayakap na siya kay jas.
"Who did this to you?" Wow kala mo concern talaga to think na he done worse to jas kasi siya Bf noon ni jas samantalang si dee.. malabong usapan lang.
"S-stop james am ok" sabi ni jas habang tinutulak siya palayo.
Hinawakan niya ang mukha ni jasmine at pilit hinarap sa kanya.
"How could you say your ok. I heard fron tita you've been sick and you're not eating that's not seems to be ok" naiirita ako sa loko na to na akala mo kung sinong santo.
Biglang tumayo sa kama si jas at lumapit sa bintana. Lalapitan pa sana siya ni james nang pigilan ko.
"What the hell anne move , She needs me right now" I gave him a disgust look . Mas lalo ko diniinan ang pag hawak sa balikat niya.
"REALLY JAMES?!?! you think my friend needs you right now. Grabe ha in the first place hindi siya mapupunta sa ganian sitwasyon kung hindi ka nagpaka 'hollow man' na bigla na lang nawala" sorry naman I just can't help it. I just can't stand here saying nothing
"Look anne leaving jasmine was not all me, She knows my reasons so please I need to talk to her" para kaming nagpapatintero na ayaw ko siya makalampas sa akin.
"No matter what reasons you had one thing is for sure, nasaktan mo siya at kung hindi ka pa aalis mas masasaktan mo siya. So please leave her alone" his face soften and saw guilt on his face.
Pero nagulat na lang kami nang may biglang kumalabog sa likod ko.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "Shit jasmine wake up baby wake up" hindi ako nakagalaw kaagad.
Binuhat agad ni james si jasmine papunta sa kama niya. "Anne dont just stand there call the driver lets bring her to the hospital"
I rushed out of jas's room para humingi nang tulong. I remove in my head ang mukha ni james. Genuin concern . Thats what I saw. Pero kung mahal pa talaga niya si jas bakit niya eto iniwan? Bakit siya bigla na lang nawala???
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10/13/14
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