"PAST - it could be danger or a mere reminder for HISTORY not to repeat itself"
Still July 14,2013 (sunday)
DEINZ'S POV
'What the hell just happened' that was the question I had on my head all the time me and kai had that convo. I dont even have the slightest idea if what triggered her to think what I am feeling now a days.
Oo. Medyo nanlalamig na nga ako but I cant deny that the feelings are still here.confuse nga lang but it doesnt mean tht they are not true.
Sabi nila if there is pain then there is love.
TERRITORIAL thats me. And thats what am feeling right now. I am not doubting but am protective of what I own.
"Hello?" She picks up the phone. Napaisip tuloy ako. 'Kailan pa sila naguusap ulit at parang di siya nagulat na tumawag si kyle?' But I set aside the question.
All Ive heard sa convo nila ay'yes, ha? Oo, cge, ok' crease on my forehead is definitely visible right now. 'What the hell are they talking about?' Nakatalikod pa sa akin si kai habang nag uusap sila sa phone.
"Ok sige bukas na lang,bye" thats what she said before she hangs up. Humarap siya sa akin after the phone call. At mukhang walang balak mag explain.
We became silent for awhile. I was looking at her intently while she fiddles with her phone.
I faked a cough that caught her attention. "So" i tried to start a conversation. We were seated apart from both sides of the bed. She just look at me with antcipation with here eyes.
"Kailan pa kayo nag usap ulit ni kyle?"
She answered with no hesitation "for a week now, bakit?" I was like what the for a week na and she never gave me a hint about this convo that they we're having. But i calm myself down. Kilala ko si kai if its not a big deal she wont waste time talk about it, kaya siguro ganun.
"Ah so kumusta na daw siya?" I wanted to know how deep are their convo. Mahirap na lalo na't medyo magulo pa ang sa amin ni kai mahirap ng masalisihan.
"Penelope broke up with him recently" sagot niya na parang wala lang tlga sa kanya but that didnt make me comfortable. Knowing that kyle is single and so as kai.. well technically she is dahil hindi pa rin kami nagbabalikan. And this situation haunts me.
"Magkikita nga pala kami bukas, just to let you know. He ask me out. Like a friendly one. For all time sake daw" she look at me straight into my eyes.
'Damn it' thats all my mind can say right now. I have no right to stop her coz she is not mine.
"Ah ganun ba? Pwede bang. " i stop at sentence. First 'i have no right to stop her ' second 'i wont be here to be with her and give her a reason to stay'. So i just nodded "ingat kayo, pakumusta mo na lang ako sa kanya" that was all i have to say.
I dont know if am dillusional or it was Disappointment that i saw in her eyes. Well I cant protest to her decision that why that was my response.
As of now, we are free to be friends with anybody. If I am not tied up with her and so as she with me. So wala talaga ako karapatan.
"So dee anu balak no for today?" she ask me, obviously changing the topic. Well am tired and all i want right now is to slee and have a break. But i also wabt to have quality tine with her. Specially now i cant just walled up with her around since the problem is am not around.
"Ikaw ba ano gusto mo gawin?" i ask her back. She was thinking deep.
"Ok lang ba na manuod tayo ng movie?" i just smiled at her. I saw her eyes smiling, how coould I say no to that. So i just nodded.
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The day went well for the both of us. We ate and finish watching the cinema. Pero sabi nga nila pag masaya laging na lang may magiging problema.
We we're walking and doing window shopping ng makaramdam ako na biglang may yumakap sa bewang ko.
Kaileen was taken aback by the sudden scenario. I was also shock by what happen. And suddenly when i turned around.
I felt someone lips crashed on mine. Pareho kami nagulat ni kai sa pangyayare
And I was so surprise to see who it was. It was damned unexpected.
"Hi hon i missed you!"
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04/18/15
Its been awhile since i last update am planning to stop writing this book. Since the person who inspired me is no longer my inspiration. But then again I saw that there are still some of you who reads my book so the journey continous...
