Blush (Jikook au)

Part 24

I tried to act as though everything was fine. It wasn't too bad since we only saw each other for maybe 8 hours a day because of Jungmin... but when I did see him I was riddled with the need to question him about this other alpha he kept smelling of.

Every other day or so he would just disappear and come home hours later, leaving me to care for the baby all alone. Each time he would come home smelling stronger and stronger as well. Namjoon would always give me a questioning look when he noticed how Kook smelt. Everyone could smell he was different but everyone knew not to question it until I did.

It was one of the days where he hadn't disappeared which made me feel a little better since I knew exactly where he was and what he was doing. I hate feeling like I need to know where he is all the time, but I can't help it. He smells of someone else, someone I don't recognise, I can't stop the suspicion. I know I should just trust him, I know he loves me, I know that whenever he pulls me away for half an hour he is praying he gets pregnant again. But it can't stop the suspicions running through my mind whenever I look at him. Whenever we do share a kiss or have sex all I can vision is him with the other alpha and I'm fuelled with white anger. I don't let myself lash out at him though, I don't like him seeing me angry over anything, never mind being angry over him. I simply walk away or hide with Namjoon incase I lash out, knowing he is the only one really capable of stopping me hurting myself or someone else.

Kook joined me in the living room and lay down with his head on my lap. He had just put Jungmin down for a nap so we had a bit of time which we would have spent all over each other but right now we just sat in silence with each other. He grabbed my hand and kissed the palm before rolling over so he was closer to me and sighing softly.

"I'm going to shower Kook"

"Okay... are you alright?"

"I'm fine" I mumbled as I walked upstairs.

I knew he would know I'm not fine but I couldn't care less right now.

I stripped myself and got under the hot water, letting it envelope around me. It only took a couple of minutes before I heard Kook join me and got undressed. As soon as he got under the water with me he wrapped his arms around me and buried himself in my neck. My arms automatically went round him and pulled him closer, even though I really don't want to right now, I can't hate him. I just can't.

At least now I have the opportunity to put my smell all over him again. I know the other alpha hasn't scented him or anything since it's not that strong, and Kook isn't in pain with it, but it's enough to drive me insane.

"I'm sorry" he whispered and kissed my mate mark

"Why?"

"For not being here as much as I should be. I promise I'll be home everyday now. I know you must be worried. I just have to go out one last time tomorrow"