The Great Divide (Levi Ackerman X Fem!Reader) ON HIATUS!

Chapter 18

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Levi was super tense when giving his speech to Eren and his friends, so I pulled his one hand out of view of everyone else's to squeeze and make him relax if even just a little bit as everyone saddled up. Hange got my horse ready, she knew I'd be on my way, but not yet. I don't know if she understood I had business to tend to first, but she seemed to understand when I didn't get ready with them. The group rode off and I looked at Levi. He'd been limping since he used his ODM gear earlier. No one else might have noticed it, but I did. He sighed as they were out of sight. He turned around and I hugged him. He was so stressed and tense that I just did what I thought would make it feel better. "Let's go fix up your ankle." I looked around, there was barely anyone there. It felt sort of eery yet serene. I found an area with a table and held onto him as he walked. I didn't want him to fall or hurt himself more if he would trip or anything. I rummaged around after I got him to sit on the table. I found some fabric to wrap his foot and ankle in. Levi sighed and I looked up at him. "You should be out there with them... It really shouldn't be this hard to keep things from you." I smiled, "Since I haven't known you as long as Hange or Erwin?" I chuckled a bit which made me happy. Even during the dark dismal state Humanity was in, I could find happiness. It made no sense that I was happier in a gory anime than in my regular life. "Hey! I asked you a question." I snapped out of my thoughts and stopped smiling as I looked up at Levi. "Sorry, what?" Levi chuckled and ruffed up my hair a little as you would do to a dog. "HEY!" I stood up and tried fixing my hair a little bit. I wasn't girly about my hair, but Seth used to do that to me and it annoyed the shit out of me. "Tch, sorry." I could tell he wasn't.  "Anyway, I was thinking. Maybe it's your psycho tendencies that help you know when I'm fucked up?" I rolled my eyes.

"I don't get those psychic tendencies anymore. Not even a little bit." I sighed. "Guess I'm not much use to the corps now..." Levi lifted my chin and looked into my eyes. "you are still an amazing soldier. (Y/n), I love you and I know a lot of the others respect you and think you belong just as much as any of us." I closed my eyes and sighed. Levi slid himself off of the table and he groaned from the sudden weight on his ankle. I stood up and was going to yell at him until he started kissing me gently. I kissed back because it is so hard to not melt into the lips of someone you love so much. The show had helped with my depression... and my love for these characters only grew as I spent time with them. It was just a slight obsession with a badass character and it just evolved into loving someone who had been there without trying and then... he was actually in front of me. When I got here... I'd had a few boyfriends, not a lot, but the feelings I had there and then... They were nothing compared to this moment. "I should probably go help the rest of the scouts with the mission." Levi continued to kiss me and I pushed him off me gently. I laid my head on his chest. "Do you think everything will work out on the mission?" Levi sighed. "I can't be sure. Anything could happen." I could feel him shiver. "I want to tell you to look out for yourself, but..." I nuzzled his chest, "It would be mission compromising. Duty calls Levi. I can't just look out for myself. There are a lot of lives at stake... I'll be fine. I promise." Levi pushed me away from his embrace and held my shoulders tightly. "You can't promise me that. Too many things have happened for me to even start to believe that." Levi started tearing up. I wiped his tears and kissed him. He leaned back on the table and I just went with the flow. We both wanted something and I was ready. I had done some things with Seth, but it didn't ever feel right with him. No stereotypical sparks, like none of that bullshit, which I didn't expect because life is no fucking fairytale, but something just wasn't right and I could never go all the way.

Levi took off his shirt somehow while we were making out and it was just like abs for days. Like this was supposed to be serious and amazing, but god damn. I'd seen pictures of him from the manga, but shit in person? If any part of me was somewhat hesitant before, that made up my mind. I loved him and he was fucking ripped. That definitely racked some points in his favor. As if I didn't see him as absolutely amazing already, but still I just wanted to point out how much I appreciated everything. We were making out and he unbuttoned my shirt and I let the shirt fall off my arms. He kissed my neck and went really slow. It was sweet. I leaned into his kisses especially when he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his torso and he turned around and set me on the table he was sitting on earlier. "Are you sure you want this (Y/n)?" Levi said my name breathily. I loved how he said my name. It was early in our relationship, but we needed this. There was no promise of a tomorrow. "I've never been surer of anything in my whole life." Clothes were then sloppily thrown off and landed around the room and I didn't care if anyone would have walked in and seen us. Sure it may have been embarrassing if it had happened, but at the same time, I feel like that in that moment I wouldn't have cared. I loved the man with me and dire times made the moment more passionate. We continued to kiss and grope. Who cares if anyone heard or if anyone walked in? We needed to be with each other. We loved each other and there was no promise of tomorrow. We were both hot for each other. Levi's hands were rough and calloused as they caressed my back and my sides. I loved it. He was trying to be so gentle with me. I wasn't sure if it was because he didn't want to hurt me or because it was his first time too (who knew? Not me.). It was hard to tell but once I got into the moment I didn't give a single fuck about that.