The Great Divide (Levi Ackerman X Fem!Reader) ON HIATUS!

Chapter 20

I didn't understand the point of me coming with Hange and Levi to Trost, but at the same time, I fought with Levi to be there. I didn't want to be left out. Someone could have easily delivered the message so part of me was confused why all of us had to go. I got motion sick on the ride there, it was awful. Poor Calamity wanted to run to her heart's content. But she could feel I was sick. Animals always know. Levi said I could come in with him to talk to Erwin, but I didn't want to intrude. One, I was sick so Levi would fuss over me. Two, I was sick so Erwin would be suspicious and worried. Three, it wasn't fair to the other regular members of the squad. I mean I have gone to so many higher-up meetings because of Hange, Levi, or Erwin that I've heard people have talked about me not being an officer and getting to go. Of course, that was before Reiner and Bertholdt took Ymir. Back when Petra was alive. Before Eren somehow controlled the titans to let us all retreat. We stayed the night in Trost and I sort of worried about the rest of the squad. Levi told me to relax, and that they would be fine, but I still worried, they were still kids. I was only a few years older than them sure, but considering the issues we've had with leaving Eren with only a few people to watch him before... Is it any surprise that I'm worried? I'm a worrier, I worry. "If they're old enough to join the military, they're old enough to take care of themselves." I rolled my eyes at Levi. These kids were at minimum fifteen years old. I thought about how fucked up the age for military service was compared to back home before I let myself fall asleep. I kept having nightmares and waking up in cold sweats. Levi never really slept much to begin with and when he did it was usually in a chair, but that night (after the third time of me waking up) he laid in bed with me which helped a little, but it didn't fully cure me of the things I saw in my dreams. I still woke up after that throughout the night though, but I didn't shoot up out of bed as I was held back by Levi's arms.

That morning we got ready to go home. On the way back to the house Hange told me how she found out Pastor Nick was murdered and from the quick look of things she got, she could tell he was also tortured. Hange suspected the interior military police. She looked back at me. She said I looked pale. I had a headache and everything hurt. Levi helped me to his room, so it would be ensured no one would accidentally wake me. I slept while Hange briefed everyone. I had a dreamless sleep. Of course, it didn't last long though. Levi burst into the room and told me I had to gear up. He helped me onto my feet and he looked into my eyes. It's as if all of my pain went away when I realized how much danger we were in. I nodded and straightened myself out. I ran to get geared up and get Calamity ready to roll. I just followed the others. I ignored every problem I had at the moment. The adrenaline was running through me. I held the reins of the horses ahead behind a bush while everyone was walking with cloaks on. That fire from before that I had when going after Bertholdt? It was back. I gritted my teeth as Levi said an order came down from somewhere within the government to freeze all scout activity outside the walls and that we were to hand over Eren and Historia. I kept all the horses quiet and clenched my jaw tighter than ever before. I felt as if my teeth were going to break. Our courier from Erwin, Nifa, also said he was arrested by the MPs shortly before she left. I got a pain in my stomach, but I ignored it. I just needed to tell myself that Erwin would be fine. I stared at my fellow squad mates. They looked terrified as Levi and Hange talked about what was going on. Levi was ready to get us out of there. We needed to get moving. "Hange I'm gonna need you to lend me some of your squad." I took a deep breath and focused on what was being said. Hange was going to see Erwin and Levi was taking most of her squad for something. Eren remembered something and wrote it down for Hange. I clenched my fist around the reins of the horses at the mention of those traitors.

Eventually, we made it to Trost. I hid the horses out of sight. Calamity wouldn't stay where I put her. "No girl, you have to stay. I'll be back for you. If not you'll know how to find me when I need you the most. Okay?" I patted the mare's snout and looked into her eyes to let her know I meant what I said. She huffed at me. "Be a good girl and keep the other horses in line alright?" She neighed and nuzzled me with her head. I hugged her neck and she finally stayed put. I walked quickly to catch up with Levi and them. I would run, but I didn't wanna draw any attention to myself. My sickness subsided for a short while, but as we were semi-safe again my headache was back. I groaned quietly and looked for Levi. I walked through a crowd that seemed frozen in time. The one MP announced extra food for everyone provided by the King. I saw Sasha staring kind of lovingly toward the stage area and walked toward them. I shook my head at the potato girl. I caught up to where Levi was and he secretly squeezed my hand to reassure me that everything would be okay. I quickly dropped his hand though. People knew about us, but I wasn't one for Public Displays of Affection, especially not right now when were basically fugitives.