I'm so obsessed I want to disappear,
But everytime I pause in my mind you reappear.
I've been working so hard,
While all I want to is low down my guard.I hate the fact I could love you all my life,
We could've been husband and wife.
But instead I'm holding a gun on our love,
Because you left when I needed you and forgot putting me above.Maybe I was too young and dependable,
But this isn't anymore amendable.
I hate being this weak,
Wishing I didn't have to watch this die in bleak.But something died when you left,
It felt like I was robbed and you were a theft.
I got so hollow and empty,
And there's nothing that will prevent me.Here we are putting this show on again,
Trying to act like my heart doesn't have a stain.
Like we are lovers when in my mind I'm gone,
Faking like I love you and stifling a yawn.You ask me to again love you,
But I can't when my heart belongs to someone new.
I know I did the unforgivable,
Now our dream is not liveable.I'm sorry,
For ending our story.
I hope you'll find a better one,
Because I'm done.
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Poems Pt. 1 (On Going)
PuisiNote: These poems are from a girl's point of view aged about 15-16. Some might be relatable, some not but I wanted to record my own personal journey and share with those who are interested. See you inside! Please don't copy this, Thankyou.