Poems Pt. 1 (On Going)

You Want To Connect Again

You want to connect again,
You want to love me again.
But things get complicated,
You're getting wasted.

Promising you'd love me,
But that's not how I want it to be.
I feel the beast waking,
History repeats while making.

You think I really love you?
I'm not the type to be true.
Because I can't commit,
I can hear you saying dammit.

I just want to see how many rounds until you give in,
For neither of us will ever win.
Chasing me until you're tired,
I'm the one thing you desired.

But I don't want you,
I don't want to be anyone new.
I'm only going to break your heart,
Keeping us apart.

If you're wiser you'd move on,
Be long gone.
But you never really understood,
When you stay I'm the one who sets the mood.

I know I'm quite the actress,
Telling I'm sorry while spreading across your mattress.
I'm broken inside,
My emotions continuing their hollow tide.

Putting on a broadway show,
Hiding when I'm feeling low.
Then I blame you for hating it,
In your lap is where I like to sit.

I'm going to make you hollow too,
No matter what you do.
Please let me go and tell me you hate me,
Why can't you see?

I don't have a fear for falling I'm just another sinner,
Even if you like to enjoy me for dinner.
I run away and tear you down,
Hoping you'll leave this town.

Stop being stubborn and realise,
You don't need love from me to rise.
You're doing great on your own,
Making yourself slowly known.

Until the end we'll be passionate and legendary,
Because you're the type I could marry.
But love doesn't stay,
I just want to play.