Poems Pt. 1 (On Going)

Fixing

Fixing this fixing that,
I've acted like a brat.
Wish I could stop,
Just lay my armor and drop.

But empty sessions don't fix broken hearts,
I'll still throw poisonous darts.
You're dishonest to yourself,
While I'm choking on myself.

What happened to the promise of us?
There is so much to discuss.
How can I admit without you thinking I'm lying?
Deep inside we know we're both dying.

I feel like you don't love me anymore,
I've become such a bore.
I should get my self respect back,
When it comes to fixing you always had a knack.

Or maybe I was right,
We were just a beautiful sight.
Not really meant for each other.
Why do I even bother?

Maybe I didn't really know how to love you,
I act like I'm surprised but this ain't nothing new.
Maybe you're just tired of guarding me day and night,
Trying to keep everything of you and me tight.

When it comes to love I'm simply hopeless,
Or maybe I'm just reckless.
I'd let down my guard if you can let me in,
But I guess we're just another sin.

I promised I'd never let you feel pain,
But now we're dying in vain.
Wish I could backtrack or say I'm sorry,
But this isn't a fairytale story.

You should let me go,
Even if I don't want to do so.
I'll be just another heartbreak,
Because your future is at stake.

That's the beauty of it,
You're drowning while others calmly sit.
I guess I should start walking away,
Knowing these thoughts won't be kept at bay.

We've got too many promises we broke,
I wish I'd have a heart stroke.
Because this pain is driving me crazy,
And the way you looked at me is already hazy.

What's happening in your life shouldn't matter to me,
Just let it all go and let this be.
'Cause I'm not me or you're not you,
When we love and try to forget the feeling of blue.

Don't try to deny this,
You're what I'll miss.
On the surface I'm ice cold,
Maybe I'm just not enough bold.

I don't want us to become the ones who love all day and fight all night,
Knowing it's long ago over and I wasn't the one to treat you right.
Maybe I'm just comfortable with you,
And the things you do.

I need to say goodbye,
We just need to let this die.
'Cause I can't love you like this,
This isn't worth the bliss.