We're broken people~ Adopted by Tyler Joseph

23~ t-e-r-r-i-f-i-e-d

I don't go home right away though, I want to just walk around, get a glimpse at my surroundings.

Also I don't want Tyler seeing the board

I still cannot believe I took it. He trusted me not to fuck anything up with that place or remind him of it but if he ever sees this everything will be fucked up.

Around a corner, close to the woods but out of them I spot a little bridge and decide to sit on it.

I sit down with my legs dangling off the edge. This was a fairly tiny bridge so nothing like jumping off would do any damage at all.

What a shame

After I sit down, I get another good look at the board. Still engraved with the word T-E-R-R-I-F-I-E-D on it.

So you are terrified then?

"Terrified of you? Hell no"

I know you are lying Crystal, don't play those games with me.

I sigh "I'm not playing any games neo, get the fuck away from me"

Me? Getting away from you?? Very funny crystal, not even death can rip me from you.

"Maybe it can"

But you will never know, you're a coward just like that Tyler was when he almost killed himself.

"He was a coward because he wanted to live, he had a future and look at him. Selling out arenas and touring all over the place"

Then what do you want to live for? What does your future hold for you?

"I don't know"

But what you do know is no matter what, it seems like a very dark future for you

I look down at the water below me, "I know"

After they stopped harassing me I got up and decided it was best I go home because I got a text from Tyler.

Tyler: hey crystal, I got your letter. Is everything okay? Please respond to this.

Crystal: yeah I'm fine. I'll be home in like 10 minutes

I shut my phone off and start walking to my house.

———-

As I enter my house a wave of relief flows through me when I realize that Tyler wasn't anywhere to been seen. Only Jenna who was making breakfast.

"Glad you're back! I was...." her voice trailed off looking at the board in my hands, which my hands were luckily covering the engraved part.

"Oh it's um something I found in the woods, in just taking it up in my room."

She looks at it for a few more minutes, not buying my words one bit, "oh okay, just make sure there aren't any bugs on it I just cleaned yesterday"

I nod and bolt up into my room taking the board with me.

As I get into my room I run and lock the door quickly. I look around to try to find a place to put it. A place Tyler wouldn't be able to find it. I decide the best place would just be under my bed.

"God dammit why did I do that?"

I try to search for reasonable answers but find none.

"Welp I guess I need to just write things out"

I grab my note book and a pencil and began to write what pops up in my mind.

May 17th 20xx

Dear me,

I've fucked up,badly. I don't ever think I can make this up. I went back to the forest and brought back the board. Why? Don't know. I feel so lost right now I thought it could give me answers. Let's just hope Tyler never finds it and let's hope my bed can actually hide it. That would actually be the death of me. And I wish I was joking.

I put the notebook down on my bed and head downstairs for breakfast.

"I'm happy you actually came back crystal. I was getting worried for a minute that something bad happened to you." Tyler said handing me a plate of food. I sit down and begin to eat as Tyler continues

"Where exactly did you go"

My heart kinda sinks at the question, "I found this tiny bridge that was over a pond. I just sat there and thought about stuff. That's all"

Tyler looks at me like Jenna not buying the story. Why am I such a bad liar?

"Okay, well again I'm happy you let us know"

I finished eating and got a text from Liv saying she wanted to hang out.

It's a good thing it's at her place so my mind wouldn't trail elsewhere.

~Tyler's p.o.v (yes dun dun dunnnn) ~

Ever since crystal came home from her "walk" this morning she hasn't acted right.

Time for operation "don't respect boundaries and investigate" time.

I head into her room probably about an hour after she left. 

She's going to murder me if she finds out I'm in here.

I look on her bed to see her notebook laying open to the most recent entry.

Do I leave it alone?

Hell no

I sit on her bed and begin to read her diary entries, starting with one from 3 days ago.

I read it out loud, "dear diary, this is becoming an ongoing thing I see. This and my ongoing battles with my head. It's kinda funny how I resort to this instead of  talking to Tyler or Jenna.
    Now I do trust them and stuff but I feel that if I try talking about my problems that they would send me back to the orphanage. Silly right? I've been with them for almost a year and learned a lot from them.
     But I've also learned is you can't trust everyone.
    Abigail once told me that, she was once my friend, her and Jaiden but we all know how that turned out. I've just stopped trying to put my issues on other people, they have there own things to worry about."

I finish that entry and go to the one she wrote yesterday.

"Hey it's me.
I'm scared of myself. I had another suicide dream. You know? It's the same one I always get. The night where I actually tried killing myself. It's that over and over again, but always changes. Last night instead of Tyler being there, it was neo.
He's trying to fuck with me other ways now I see"

Finally I get to the most recent one from this morning.

"I've fucked up,badly. I don't ever think I can make this up. I went back to the forest and brought back the board. Why? Don't know. I feel so lost right now I thought it could give me answers. Let's just hope Tyler never finds it and hope that my bed actually hides it. That would actually be the death of me. And I wish I was joking"

"She did what?!?"

I look under her bed to see the engraved wood. Thousands of bad memories are floating back to my head. I can't think. I grab my phone and call her.

"Crystal, get your ass back here now"

Guess who's back?

"Not you" I say in disbelief