We're broken people~ Adopted by Tyler Joseph

41~ lies

I slowing begin to wake up when I see light shining through my window. I look down to my phone to see that is was almost 10.

"Damn I slept in" I say getting up and running to the bathroom.

Then I remember what I did last night. I look down at the bathroom sink to see dry blood on the counter as well as the blade sitting there. Guilt ran through my whole entire body, taking control of my thoughts.

Why did I do this?

Why did i let them take over?

Why am I so stupid?

I've never felt this way ever after hurting myself. Why now all of a sudden was I feeling so much guilt?

I begin to clean up the mess that I forgot to clean from last night. i picked up the blade hesitantly. I opened up the trash can placed it in there never wanting to see it again. I carefully roll up my sleeve to see what I actually did last night. Not really remembering what damage I truly caused.

"Oh fuck" I look down and see how bad it really was, over 50 marks on my skin. My whole arm was red from irritation as well. I put my sleeve back down and go down for breakfast trying to forget what I did. Key word, trying.

"Well you slept in" Jenna turned to me, with a spatula in her hand.

"Yeah I woke up at 1 last night and didn't fall back asleep until later. So I'm still super tired" I take a seat at the table and hit my head face first into the wood.

"Well eat up Crystal, we have a big day ahead of us." She sets a plate of food in front of me and continues to talk, "we're you wearing that last night?" She points to my sweatshirt and I quickly jolt my head up.

My heart sinks, "not when I went to bed, but I got cold in the middle of the night so I put it on, what are we even doing today?"

"Tyler wants to go shopping a little later as well as out to dinner. While we are at the mall we can go to guitar center and look around at the instruments. He's down in the studio working on some music, so he should get done soon."

"What about my bass lesson today?"

"He won't forget about it I promise you, he tell me how much he loves giving you lessons. So you will probably have one right before we leave"

The time Tyler gave me for lessons really all depended on both of our moods. We sat down in his studio once for 2 hours just trying to get one bass line down. But we both enjoyed in nonetheless.

I quickly finished my breakfast and headed up into my room. I ran into the bathroom and jumped into the shower, trying to clear me brain. But it won't let me forget what I did.

"Fuck this burns!" I yell, as the water hits my wounded arms. Why now am I feeling more pain then I normally would? This wasn't right. Something just wasn't right about everything that was going on. Me feeling guilty, and now feeling more pain then ever.

"What has gotten into me?" I shut off the water and grab a towel wrapping it around my body. I go out into my room and grab a sweatshirt and shorts. It was mid August, probably one of the hottest days of the year. Let's just hope I can make an excuse for why I was wearing a hoodie in almost 100 degree weather. I grab my clothes and make my way into the bathroom.

You really think that you are getting away without hearing me?

"I'm ignoring you neo, leave for the last goddamn time." I slide on my shorts and hoodie real quick and start to brush my hair.

Ignoring me? How rude? Show your only friend some respect here.

"I wouldn't consider you remotely close to a friend."

Awe crystals lying to herself again.

"I'm not lying, get the hell away"

Yes you are

"Shut up!" I punched my bathroom door without thinking.

"Crystal are you okay?" Jenna yelled from the kitchen

"Yeah I'm fine, I just fell that's all" I looked down at my hand to see that the skin was raw and my hand was bleeding. "Well this is great." I rush back into the bathroom and clean off my hand. I look in the cabinet above the toilet and grab some ointment and bandaids and put it on my hands. I walk out of my bathroom and just plop myself on my bed and turn on some music.

The first thing that came on was Holding onto you.

I have news for you you must obey me.

That line stuck out the most. How come I couldn't have neo obey me? Were they just too controlling for that to happen?

After a half an hour of listening to music and screaming the lyrics Jenna came up to tell me that Tyler was ready for my lesson. I grab the black bass in my room and make my way downstairs.

"Hey crystal! You ready?" I nod and sit down next to him. He grabs an amp and plugs my bass in along with his.

"How was work?" I say

"It was good, the music is sounding great in my opinion. I just hope everyone likes it."

"They will Tyler trust me!"

We started getting situated which my lesson. I scrolled through my phone to see what song I wanted to learn how to play. After a while I finally found it and Tyler looked up the tabs for it. He started showing me until he realized something.

"Crystal why don't you roll your sleeves up? The strings are going to sound muted if you don't."

My heart sank and I froze. "I think I'll be okay, look it sounds fine" I start playing random notes on the bass.

"Crystal I really think you should-" he starts to roll up my sleeves for me. I'm frozen and I can only watch. He sees the damage I've done. It's too late.

"Crystal why?" I look up at him to see the sorrow on his face.

I can't do this anymore
I can't

You are a failure.

"I can't do this!" I set my bass down and run up stairs passing jenna and make my way up to my room.

There's no use now.