We're broken people~ Adopted by Tyler Joseph

30~damage

A/n (trigger warning in this whole chapter)
"Crystal come on get up you have been sleeping for forever" Tyler says. I hear him but don't move.

"Give me 5 more minutes" I turn on my side facing the wall.

Tyler after trying over and over gets a pillow and starts to hit me with it. "Get up or I'm dragging you"

I finally wake up and throw the pillow at him, "next time let me sleep"

"No, we are going swimming and want you to go"

He leaves my hotel room and I head to change.

I haven't worn a tank top looking thing in a while, so this is very new.

I look at myself in the mirror with disgust. I look on my thighs and see all the scars from my previous episodes, including the really deep ones from me running away.

You are so fucking fat

"I know this neo, don't have to tell me twice" I turn to examen my stomach. I wasn't fat, but I wasn't "model skinny" I was healthy though.

Just starve yourself already, you can't obviously cut yourself, why not suffer another way, plus you can look like all the other girls, very skinny

"I don't have time right now neo" I open the bathroom door and head out with Jenna,Tyler, josh and Debby with a towel wrapped around my body.

They have seen my scars but not the bad ones on my thighs, I've covered them up pretty well.

"Well lets go"

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We swim for quite awhile, missing lunch. Jenna and Debby have been tanning and josh and Tyler have been wrestling in this pool for like and hour. I've been just watching in amusement far away.

Soon enough I see Tyler and josh staring at me while Tyler whispers something in joshes ear. Josh nods and then starts to talk to me.

"So crystal, um what nice weather?" Josh saying trying to come up with stuff to say.

Before I can answer Tyler interrupts, "I gotta go pee, I'll be right back". He runs straight for the bathrooms and I answer Josh's question...sorta

"I mean it's....."

Before I could finish Tyler jumps back into the pool, practically sitting on me and screams "TAG YOURE IT" in my face.

"God damn Tyler you are like a 5 year old!!!!"

I turn around to see Jenna looking at me with a angered look, "no swearing!!"

"Sorry!!" I run over to josh and tag him back. For the next 30 minutes we play until I give up.

I jump out of the pool and I immediately run and sit down. I realize that my thighs were exposed to see the damage that really has happened over the past few years and in my head. I look up to see Tyler staring at the raised marks. I quickly pull my towel over my body, covering my legs.

I look down at the ground with disappointment. Why? Tyler knows all of this, but why am I so sad? "Can we go now," I barely whisper. Everyone agrees and we go back to the hotel.

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I run to my hotel room. I don't even know why they trust me here alone. Tyler and Jenna have a room. And so does josh and Debby. Why the hell would they trust a suicidal teen to be alone? God being at home in my own room is risky enough. I guess they think it's fine because Tyler has another key for this room.

But the last incident that put me in the hospital didn't change a lot about my mental state.

I quickly find my suitcase, grabbing some clothes to change into after the shower. I open a small pocket and find the blue razor I placed in there days earlier. I hesitate before grabbing it.

"Just this once, I'll stop I promise"

Right??

I jump into the shower and clean all the chlorine off of me, letting the vibe of the music I put on slide over me. I get out and quickly change before almost forgetting what I was gonna do. Almost forgetting.

You forgot you're friend..

I run back into the shower and grab the blue razor. I sit on a towel and start to disassemble it. I guess it's an old hobby I've mastered over time. After getting the blades loose, I lift up the side of my shirt and began to press one of the blades into my newly cleaned skin. Careful about where the marks go. I drop the one side of my shirt, and continue with the other side. After maybe 50 cuts total I grab a floss container I brought and stick the blades into the box. I clean up my sides.

Tyler: hey we are going out to dinner, be out in 5

I put some makeup on, and throw my shoes on before exiting the room.

"Ready?" Tyler says. I nod and we head to the restaurant.

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"This place is so nice!!" Debby says as we walk in. I look around my surrounds and see basically everyone is dressed up. I look down and see what I'm wearing.

Yeah, I'm alittle underdressed.

We sit down and I sit next to Debby and Jenna. I look up to see joshand Tyler acting like 5 year olds again. Looking around and picking out why this place is so pretty.

"This place is even more beautiful with my lovely wife over there" I turn to see Jenna blushing like crazy.

"Oh Tyler!"

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The waiter comes over and we order.

"What would you like miss?"

"I'll just have a side salad, that's all"

Debby turns to me, "Crystal arent you hungry? We haven't had much all day?"

The truth was I was extremely hungry. But I didn't want to eat. I know I have to though because Tyler and Jenna would start getting suspicious.

"I had something small back in my hotel room. I'm not that hungry."

Well don't you love lying

Our food came and I was of course the first one finished. I just drank a shit ton of lemonade to make up for how hungry I was.

"So josh and I were gonna go explore after this and wanted to know if you guys wanted to go?"

"We were just gonna stay back at the hotel to just relax, plus it's almost after crystals bedtime"

I look to Tyler, "excuse me? Bed time! I can go to bed whenever I want!!"

"He rolls his eyes, "but you always go to bed at like nine, on a good day"

Did he have to say the last part? On a good day?

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Everyone finishes eating and we say good bye to everyone.

As im saying goodbye to Debby she grabs my sides alittle to hard and I flinch, a lot. After the hug I notice Tyler was standing behind Debby the whole time. He has a very mournful look on his face.

Shit shit shit.

He fucking knows...again