We're broken people~ Adopted by Tyler Joseph

28~ packing

*trigger warning basically this whole chapter*
Dear diary,
              It's been a few weeks since I got my stupid stitches out of my arms. The marks have somewhat faded but are still drastically there. I just found out that we are going on vacation with Debby and josh. Which is exciting but is going to make me very self conscious about myself. We are leaving in 2 days to go to Hawaii. Let's  hope nothing bad happens.
~Crystal

I shut my book and head downstairs for lunch

"Crystal, have you started packing?" Jenna says sitting down at the table.

"No not yet, I don't have a bathing suit so we need to get one"

Jenna nods, "I can pick one up later after I go to the store to pick up a few things for Tyler"

"Okay" I turn to Tyler who had been dead silent writing in his song book the entire time. "How has song writing been going ?"

"I'm currently stuck and don't know how to finish this line"

"What do you have so far dear?" Jenna says

Tyler holds up his notebook and begins to sing a chorus he came up with
"Nice to know my kind will be on my side, I don't believe the hype. And you know you're a terrible sight," he stops singing "that's all I have so far for that chorus, but it doesnt seem complete"

I pause a moment to think "that's a great start Tyler, maybe something about how you will be fine, or something like that?"

"I got it!" He grabs the pen and starts to write, after getting his thoughts down he begins to read it "nice to know my kind will be on my side I don't believe the hype, and you know you're a terrible sight, but you'll be just fine, just don't believe the hype. Sound good?"

Me and Jenna both nod, "what instruments are you going to use for this song?"

"Probably ukulele for this one, this is the hype song of the album I'd like to think"

We all laugh and Tyler continues, "it kinda sucks that josh moved to LA, I'm so used to going to his house to show him what I came up with. I'm hoping this vacation helps us come up with crap for the next album"

Tylers been all worked up about his new album and constantly will stay up late to work on it.

"Crystal have you met Debby yet?" Tyler says shutting the book and putting his plate in the sink

"No I haven't" Debby is Josh's girlfriend, I only know her from a few shows on Disney channel but that's about it.

"You will like her she's a great person"

All I really know is that josh and Debby recently got back together after a break.

"But remember crystal you cannot post any pictures or stuff while we are in vacation on Instagram, Tyler and josh are on a break and don't want media to interfere with it" Jenna says taking my plate

"Oh yeah the hiatus" I say laughing

Tyler turns to me with a disapproved look on his face, "it's not a hiatus, we aren't MCR and won't come back, it's just going to be like a year"
(A/n please don't kill me for the MCR reference)

Ouch that one hurt, "you didn't have to hurt my emo soul like that Tyler!!"

"Oops my bad"
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A couple hours later I start to pack for the trip, bringing everything I possibly could need. Jenna picked up my bathing suit so I even had that

"There I think that's it" I say closing my suitcase

You are wrong

This shit head?!?

"Not the time neo, I'm busy"

You aren't busy, you finished packing, oh wait you haven't

"What could I have possibly forgotten"

You know you won't be so happy on this trip, those scars will be awfully lonely if they don't have anymore friends.

"Yeah I'm not bringing fucking razor blades on vacation, besides if I did anything to my body they would for sure find out"

Not exactly, you have nice fresh skin on ur sides that would easily cover up even with a bathing suit

"Where would I even get a razor from?"

I cannot believe I'm actually considering this

Open your nightstand and see

I opened my nightstand and see a brand new razor there

"What the hell?"

Haven't you missed taking apart razors? It was your hobby for a long time, you got good at it.

I reach for the razor and begin to examine it, I run my fingers across it. Enough for the little blades to leave small cut marks on my finger just grazing the top layer of skin.

"Why can't you leave me alone for once?" I say packing the razor in my suitcase before closing it completely for the last time.

You cave in so easily crystal, I've missed you

"I haven't" I say before going down to eat dinner