We're broken people~ Adopted by Tyler Joseph

42- pills

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING!!!: Suicide attempt. Proceed to the ** to skip

I can't take this

I can't take neo

I can't take any of this.

I can't take someone, something controlling me anymore. Hurting me and the people around.

I walk slowly up into my room, not bothering to hear what Tyler and Jenna have to say this time about the cuts on my arms. They thought I was getting better, I thought I was getting better. But I guess after all I'm just getting worse.

I'm just a broken person.

I slam my door shut not even bothering to lock it. Tyler and Jenna know not to come in here. It will only make things worse. Countless thoughts running through my head. Countless emotions at once. Anger, sadness, hate, disappointment.

This is your time crystal, it's your time.

I make my way into the bathroom and rummage through the medicine cabinet, which mostly consisted of bandaids and ointment. I push the stuff aside to find what I was looking for.

A bottle of pills.

I grab the bottle and examine it. A little less then half of the bottle was still in there, that didn't matter. Hopefully it would get the job done.

I open the bottle up and take all the pills out. I put them all in my mouth and swallow all of them.

I didn't take long for me to feel what was happening.

I sat on the floor of the bathroom, screaming. A migraine starting to come on but was worse then anything that I've ever experienced. I grab my head and scream louder and louder. On top of that, excruciating pains in my stomach that lead me to throw up.

I try to make my way over to my room to try to get Jenna and Tyler to help.

Then my door swings open and I see Tyler and Jenna standing there.

"What happened!!" Tyler practically screamed, I look up quickly to make out tears in his eyes. But failed so see anything else as my vision started to get fuzzy.

I can't talk at all, I slowly lift my hand up and show him the bottle. He quickly grabs it and falls to his knees.

"Jenna call 911!!!"

He starts to cradle me in his arms, "you're gonna be okay, Crystal everything will be okay!! I love you crystal please remember that!! Me and Jenna love you so so so much!! Please keep fighting, you need to be here!! I need you here!!"

The last thing I heard from Tyler was 'I love you' before it all went black.

I always felt alone. Felt like I was the only human in the universe going through what I went through. Never once thinking about how the people around me felt about what I was doing to myself. I let neo control me so so many times. I was blind and couldn't see the people around me that cared. See the people that loved me.

I always listened to music, music telling me that it was okay to feel pain, but I had to stay alive because things get better. I just made a dumb decision and my life is on the line, for the second time.

~~~~** END OF TRIGGER**~~~~

I remember when I first went to that orphanage. I was so scared and confused. I wanted someone to love me so bad. To make up for what my real parents lacked. The day I saw Tyler walk my way was one of the happiest days of my life. Him telling me he wanted to adopt me. My hero wanted to adopt me, some broken girl who just wanted to be loved. I remember how I felt getting that ukulele the day they took me away from that hell hole that was my home for a few months. Tyler and Jenna were everything to me, my idols and who I aspire to be. I just can't have my life cut short.