Living With The Monroe Boys

Chapter 30.She's Gone

The house has been quiet for the past two days,nothing seemed lively anymore.Well to me it didn't,the atmosphere that lingered around the house didn't help either.I was sitting with Rachel and Rebecca on my bed,I still wasn't okay enough to go out downstairs alone.Most of the times I would just sneak out at midnight,even then I still was scared.

“Ciara you know I'm here for you for whatever...But are you sure about this?”Rachel asked in a sad tone,I knew this was the last thing she wanted to find out.

“I told you already,I'm sure.”I responded trying to sound like I was sure,the truth was I really wasn't sure at all.

“You know that is gonna break their hearts right?”Rebecca asked,I didn't ignore the question I simply just didn’t answer.I knew that they wouldn't like it but something was telling me to leave,that my time here was up.

“There just gonna have to deal,they were fine when I got here and they will be alright after I leave.”I answered adjusting the hoodie I was wearing,my hair was tied up and I was just in my regular hoodie and sweatpants.

“Ciara even I know better than that,when are you gonna tell them?”Rachel asked still not happy about the answers I was giving her,Rachel had become my best friend in such short time so I knew this wasn't easy.Not for anyone really.

“They are being told today..Right now actually,Kelly and the rest of them are telling them.”I replied,I was scared to even hear the reaction.

“Ciara doesn't that intercom let you peep in on rooms or something?”Rebecca asked jumping off the bed and walking over to it.

“I have no clue,usually im yelling at them to come here or texting.”I shrugged my shoulders and just grabbed a pillow,I hugged it and it was in a small way therapeutical for the pain I was feeling.

Rebecca played with the intercom,she was dating one of the boys here so it wouldn't surprise me if she was able to work it cause lord knows I didn't.After a second or two a light on it lit up and I could hear the voices coming from it,the first voice I heard was Kelly.

“Alright boys,we got something to tell you.We know you have practice in a bit but it can wait,this matter is concerning Ciara.”Her voice was breaking and sounded like she had been crying earlier,the intercom was feeding us the voices as If we were there.Rebecca smile with satisfaction and came to sit back down,she knew I wanted to hear it deep down inside.

“Is there something wrong with her?”Xavier voice spoke up,

“No,Just listen and no matter what we're gonna need you all to support her decision.”Kelly replied,she was trying to stop a storm that was already waiting to be released.

“Boys,Ciara isn’t gonna be staying with us for much longer.”Jason took over,thats when the pain in my heart struct and I grabbed the pillow tighter.

“Dad dont tell me that social worker got the better of you?”Javaughn asked sounding surprised,wait hold up what social worker?I looked at Rachel and she shrugged her shoulders in confusion,Rebecca looked as if she knew what he was talking about.

“Jason was winning against her,its just that Ciara has decided on her own that she wants to leave.I doubt she even knew about the social worker trying to take her away,we didn't want her to worry so we didn't tell her.”Vick jumped in and started giving more details that Jason wasn't,

“Wait so she wants to leave?”Trevor asked,there was a long silence so I had to guess some one nodded the answer.I was waiting to hear a uproar of comments to that but the intercom stayed quiet,there was no sound,only thing I could here was my heart beating in my ears.

The sound that blasted next through the intercom was Tommy beginning to cry,It pained me to hear my little man cry.I just threw my face into the pillow,I didn't want to hear anymore.My already damaged heart was just getting more damaged by hearing him cry,I always made a effort to keep Tommy happy.

“Where are you all going?”Kelly blurted out,

“We have practice.”Kyle replied in strange tone,I never heard that out of him before.

“Michael and Xavier where are you going?”Kelly asked,

“I'm still a college student,I have work to do my self.”Xavier voice got lower as I heard the front door open

“Their coaches asked me to take their team photos,so I'm off with them to the school.”He replied coldly,I didn't need to listen to the intercom to hear the door slam shut.Rebecca hurried and turned it off seeing as I was crying now,the emotions I had was just all confused and jumbled.

I laid back on the bed and threw the pillow over my face with it,this was definitely getting to me.I knew that leaving wasn't gonna be simple but did it have to be this hard,the only thing I didn't hear was if someone asked when I was leaving.



I was in the closet throwing things in the suitecase,Rachel was helping me in some ways.In others she was removing what I packed and put them back where they were,I sighed and gave a slight grin.I would miss Rachel,she was the one who kept me laughing.

“Why is this so soon?”She asked

“Cause it is,now stop unpacking me.”I replied throwing my converses in the shoe bag,

“I mean the boys just found out this afternoon and now you're packing the same night!”She was unhappy with me but I just kept going,I made the decision and now I'm going through with it.

“Rachel calm down you can come and visit me at anytime,I mean i'm not leaving the state,obviously I can't.”I reminded her,philly would've been nice but then again I wouldn't be able to even look at a gun.

“True.Its gonna be weird not seeing you cussing out one of the boys though,or us spending girl time in this big house.”She said,she looked into the space as if she was reliving what she was saying.I smiled a bit thinking back at how this was,it wasn't the best but it was great. “By the way where are you staying?”

“Connie decided that she will stay here with me,so we're getting some place along the way.”I shrugged,I hadn't seen the place.Since I told her the other day they been doing nothing but getting things ready.

“How are Mrs. and Mr. Monroe taking it?”

“Well Kelly doesn't like it but she says whatever will help me she’ll be okay,Jason I'm not sure its hard to read him.”

“Wow So you are leaving.”A voice floated into the room,It shocked me a bit but I turned around and there stood Javaughn.He was sweating and still had his bag on him,I'm guessing he just came in.

I didn't answer and just turned around,something in his eyes made me turn around,I just couldn't look at him.I shook my head and continued,he didn't say anything and then I heard footsteps go out the room.

“He was calmer than I though he be.”Rachel commented noticing his manner as well,Javaughn was laid back..at times.

We continued till the closet was emptied in the suitcases which wasn't easy,the whole closet was empty.Connie and her brothers came up to help take them down to the car,I had my backpack that had more personal things in it.I looked back at the room before closing it and went down the hallways,it was quite.I went down to the sparring room and looked around,I didn't use it for long but when I did it brought back good memories.

I turned out the lights to it and closed the door,I had to admit I was gonna miss this place.I continued down the hallway to the stairs when I bumped into someone,damn I need to start looking up when I walk!

“You okay?”It was Tyler

“I'm fine”He extended his hand but I got up on my own,the atmosphere around us seem to get thicker.He held his head down a bit and walked past me,I looked back and watched the black hair stroll into a room.

I made it downstairs and all I saw was Rebecca,rachel,Kelly,Jason and my philly family.Not one monroe boy in sight,not even Tommy.Something tugged at my heart when I looked around but II didn't let it get to me,I said my goodbyes to everyone,even doing so I started to tear up.I walked out the door with them and got into the car,I looked back at the house and silently gave one more goodbye then I was off.



(Trevor P.O.V)

“I wanna see Ciara!”Tommy whined trying to escape my bear hug,I knew he wanted to see Ciara leave we just couldn't let him do that.

“Tommy Calm down okay,Ciara wants to leave so we can't make it harder for her.”I replied,he calmed down a bit but the water works were coming on.Me and everyone else heard the front door close shut,she was gone.We were all in the Hangout room,we all had decided that if we saw Ciara off not only would we try our damnedest to tell her to stay we might also scare her in the process.She can't really come near us seeing as she still has those moments where she flips out,we had tried out best to keep our distance,not that we had to really since she rarely came out.

“Maybe we should at least of said goodbye”Michael whispered,him and Tommy were the ones who really didn't grasp what we were trying to do.

No one said anything,the room was quiet and we all were slipping into a sadness.Xavier was over in the corner icing his foot seeing as he was so consumed with the news he was off his game,he wasn't the only one though no one really in this room had a bad practice.

“Is she going back to Philly?”Michael asked

“No,To dangerous remember,dad however did tell me she is staying in the state and somewhere possibly close.”Xavier answered,he ran out of Ice so he had to leave to get more.

“I can see why he didn't tell us.”I commented,dad knew us better than anyone.If we would've found out the location there would be no guessing where we would try to go every minute,Ciara probably would've been overwhelmed by all of that.

The room fell quiet,the movie we had been playing to try and take our minds off things wasn't working.

“Think about it this way Michael,She will get the help she needs.”Tyler said,he wasn't looking so good after he came back in the room.The sad expression he had on his face fell further when he walked back in,I didn't need him to tell me that he may have bumped into her.

“I guess you're right.”He finally dropped the topic,the room that was once brightened seemed dull and lifeless.

Ciara agreed to counseling after she had flipped out that last time,she was gonna get better,we were trying to give her the space she needed.We knew that it was gonna take a while but for Ciara it was worth a few agonizing months of not seeing her,what she may of not notice she has had a big effect on everyone in the room.

For Michael it was learning self confidence,when he first came in the family he was really timid.Ever since Ciara came he has opened up more,he’s starting to get his Monroe strips.

For Me it was showing me how not to get offended so easily,that night we fought I always believed a girl was never stronger than a boy.After that day I changed the way I thought a bit,I had always used girls and toyed with their emotions...I still do that but not as much.

For Tyler it was his anger,when he gets mad all he sees is red.When Ciara got punched he tried his hardest to stay calm,which worked in some ways.

For Kyle it was just being able to trust a female again,the break up with stacy caused him not to trust girls,he thought they were only close to him to get to the rest of us.He doesn't A hundred percent but its close enough where it's comfortable for him to have female friends,

I wasn't sure about Javaughn but she did help him fix his relationship with Rebecca,lets face it all his other girlfriends where hoes and nothing more,this one however everyone liked.

For Xavier it was not being a asshole all the time,lets face it Ciara had lady balls to stand up to Xavier.His girlfriend was the only one to stand up to him till Ciara came,after that he started to act nicer...He was still an ass though.

She changed a lot within us twisted boys,she became apart of the family.She never once saw any of us as orphans thrown in one place,she saw seven close brothers.Matter of fact she never mentioned or ever said we were abandoned,she just saw us as the Monroe boys.

We were gonna miss Ciara in the house......But I know for a fact that this was never gonna be permanent!

Authors Note: Surprise update, I felt a little better so I said why not! Anyway my friend who loves this book read it before I posted it and said it seemed like I was ending the story....That a big fat NO! there are plently of more chapters to come in this book!So its not over till the fat lady sings!!!