The relationship between Rita and Peter seemed doomed, after all, she thought she was moving across the ocean forever just when she realized she loved him.
But did she really? A lot has happened since, find out how much on Ruled, where they make...
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It doesn't take much of me to swerve past Peter and keep walking, even if not sure where. It simply takes the reminder that he failed miserably to keep his promise.
I know I'm not completely healed for the whole situation still stings at the bitterness that lingers and at the small part of me that seeks for clearance. The part of me that still wants to think Peter wouldn't do this without a reason and that still thinks that he is my ultimate destiny.
It's been months, months it took me to realize Peter isn't and was never the un-flawed human I though him to be, it took me months to realize I did nothing wrong and that this wasn't on me.
After all if we were meant to be nothing like this would have ever happened.
It's been months, months those I used too to realize I didn't lose Peter.
Peter lost me, and as he once said, he will be doomed to search for me inside every girl he's with forever, only he won't find anyone that even comes close.
That's the saddest life I can think of and I'm scared it's too going to be mine.
It's been months and the memory of his presence has, thankfully, escaped my mind. I no longer see his face in strangers, and the things we once shared no longer bring tears to my eyes but at the same time I can't fully let go.
Peter carved himself so deeply into my heart it doesn't matter how hard I try to remove him, he remains there. Unfazed, untouched and unchanged.
I shake myself out of the prison that's my mind and instead of spiraling into a melancholic state I mentally congratulate myself for really choosing to ignore his presence at the same time I try to ease my chest that's heaving up and down as If I just ran a marathon.
For as much as I want to scream at him that is absence took more of me than he imagines I can't do it and I don't want to either.
It's in my opinion a loss of time and energy and plus I don't want to be the one to give in and intercept him when he's the one who's wrong, which might be a childish thing to do but I'm not going to give him the satisfaction that is being sure, because he might imagine, I am or was ever not okay.
I am okay and if I'm not, Peter isn't going to know.
I can no longer spot Andrea and Isa in the depths my vision reach and Isaac is too nowhere to be found. I'm not even going to mention Lara Jean's inconvenient absence either.
Everyone I know seems to have disappeared from the face of the earth and even Peter, not that I care, is gone.
A loud laughter rises above the whole commotion of the party catching my fast spinning attention and my head turns automatically towards it.
