january reminiscing

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I stared at the blank ceiling of the dorm room, the only light available came from the silver moon's rays through the squared window and it casted funny shadows on the wall, though after a while they became annoying. I kept tossing and turning, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get comfortable.

The clock above the desk read 12:54 AM.

I just wished that I could have closed my eyes as soon as my head hit the pillow and had fallen into a deep slumber, but I couldn't. Apart from the jet lag, my thoughts were mercilessly keeping me wide awake.

It was already January 12th aka the first day of rehearsals and I wasn't extremely excited about it when I should have been. Apparently being someone's substitute equalled to being their servant and something was telling me Chloe wasn't going to object the concept. She'd have me fetch green juices every other hour. or have me massage her toes.

My blood began boiling just thinking about how it all diminished me and my worth. I wasn't in theatre school to be someone else's help, let alone Chloe's and the thought made me sick to my stomach. 

Succumbing to the realisation that I was not going to fall asleep any time soon, I grabbed my phone from it's place beside my pillow and clicked it on, the bright light nearly blinding me. 

I didn't have much notifications to check upon beside Leo's classic apologetic messages he'd been sending every day since December and some Instagram follows. 

I classically ignored his messages for they made me feel even sicker and would only make me angrier and decided to scroll through Instagram. 

larajean.c at University of California Los Angeles                                                                                3hrs ago

c at University of California Los Angeles                                                                                3hrs ago

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larajean.c *tired emoji*

lancaster those flushed cheeks baby 

browneva goddamn

itsritalancaster I wish I looked this good tired

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