Ruled, ᴘᴇᴛᴇʀ ᴋᴀᴠɪɴsᴋʏ

forgiveness

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what?? a note at the beginning of the chapter, what is this vikie?

Well, my lovely reader @KaiyaGandi noticed something I'd like to point out:

the ''so cold'' song by Chris Brown fits this last couple chapters just perfectly, and well ya'll should hear it bc it adds to the feels! 

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"We should go for a walk." I said, downing the water Leo had left for me, hoping it'd sober me up. 

''Right now?'' Alec looked absolutely confused and I knew it was because he'd never expected in a million years I'd talk to him again let alone show worry.

''Yeah! Can you lend me a coat though? It's kinda chilly out.''

''S-sure! L-let me just- I need-''

''Go! I'll be waiting on the front porch.'' I interrupted once I noticed he was stumbling too much on his words. 

Alec smiled nodding, his aura turning from dark to the brightest it had ever been. All he needed was to feel like someone cared deeply about him and in time, those green eyes of his would shine as they were born to. 

It was true Alec had cut deeply into my soul and made me bleed uncontrollably but I couldn't undo his misdeeds... In the end of the day forgiveness is a virtue, an attribute of the strong for It takes incredible strength  to absolve someone of the pain they have caused and I, on my path to become a the person I want to be, needed to forgive. 

''Hey! Where are you going?'' Lara Jean stumbled her way to me, hinting she wasn't at all sober.

''Catch some air.'' I chuckled as I had to held her up. ''Where's your boyfriend?''

''I don't know.'' She shrugged between a hiccup. ''I've been drinking with Leo and Eva- OH- I need to tell you something about L-''

''Hey LJ.'' Alec said interrupting her speech and somewhat at fear approaching us.

Lara Jean's hair slapped her face as she turned to me at the speed of a bullet, grabbing the skin of my arm and widening her eyes. She too was taken aback by his appearance.

''It's okay.'' I assured her, massaging the place where she had pinched. ''We're okay.'' She eyed me worryingly, her lips pouted.

''Are you sure?'' 

''Positive.''

''You are to good for this world.'' She shook her head as if it was a disappointment. ''And the world sucks for you.'' I pressed my lips together, flustered with her words but also extremely tendered.

''Good to see you.'' Alec tried, though Lara Jean rolled her eyes turning her back on him and saying something she'd never say if her blood wasn't mixed with alcohol.

''Can't say the same.'' 

I glanced at Alec apologetically, however I couldn't manage what to say. Alec didn't hurt me solely, he hurt everyone who cared deeply and fondly for him. Clearly, Lara Jean was hurt; She either, never dreamt that Alec would do what he did, plus she felt for me which only added to the bitterness in her tone.

''I deserved that.'' He shrugged, his tone somewhat comically. We closed the door behind us and he handed me his varsity jacket. I noticed he hadn't changed his player number as I threw it over my shoulders. He was still the number three - just as he'd been since high school, time when it signified the birthday of his girlfriend.